I feel so confused.
as great buddies.
it's a totally different thing.
without the other knowing.
putting on a cover.
i can't believe that this is happening.
how vague this is.
and next pulling me in.
wow. so i'm stuck in the middle huh.
at the same time.
it disappoints me.
i don't even know if i can trust you anymore.
but now i don't think i should.
Just thinking out loud.
Somewhere in my little head.
You are lingering in my thoughts, dear.
To Qinyi:
YES I HAVE REPLIED YOUR TAG YOU DOPEY!
ok, let's talk about my bangkok trip =)
this trip was basically about shopping =D
we spent A LOT.
A LOT i tell you.
anyway,
some places to highlight:
first off, the hotel!
it was real clean and big and nice =)
didn't expect that.
and the best part,
the Mrt's sort of connected to the hotel,
so the whole trip we travelled via the Mrt!
it's the first time my dad didn't drive =)
the thai are real courteous and sweet.
except for some exceptions.
but generally they are really great and smiley people =)
the chuptochup weekend market.
it's 500 over stalls there.
they were even selling squirrels at $10, a baby Pug at less than $100.
it's real cute!
they have this primitive yet creative way of making ice cream too!
next would be the Siam Paragon.
it's something like our Singapore's Paragon.
all those brands.
gosh.
and there's also this place called Gaysorn.
i think it's even more high ranged than the paragon.
anyway,
Bangkok is not all about the imitations =)
in fact,
most or all of the stuff we bought were real.
since the imitations and real stuff were about the same price,
so why get the fake.
haha.
then there's the ocean world.
my mum HAD to go.
so we obliged=)
it was all right.
something like Singapore's.
Food there is seriously cheap =)
did half a day of sightseeing,
cos my dad didn't want to only do shopping =)
so we went to see the Palace.
well, we didn't exactly go in,
we saw it from afar xD
then there was the Chinatown.
i was real happy when we got the window seat in the plane =)
somehow i just love looking out.
it was 7+pm when the plane took off.
the sky was lovely.
i guess no words can express
nor the picture i took to explain its beauty.
you just have to see it firsthand.
it was simply lovely.
on the plane there, i watched 'Your's, Mine,Ours'
coming back i watched 'Elizabethtown' =)
It's easier to be all sad, obviously. that's cos you are surrendering. heard a phrase something like that in that show =)
suddenly i started thinking, about you. gosh,
there are so many things i missed out. i shall upload some pictures we took soon.
today,
i overslept!
sheesh.
i was suppose to wake up at 9.30am so that i can get ready to meet Qinyi, Gloria and Jiale at 10.30am.
but i woke up at 10am.
so in the end,
there was some confusion so i left for Janice's house on my own!
anyway,
i believe that i was being some huge sun in jan's house.
seriously,
a BIG BIG BRIGHT sun.
we watched tv at jan's house!
YAY.
teehee.
after that, we left for training.
the damn taxis didn't want to stop.
sheesh.
so Gloria, Jiale and i tookt the first cab.
we were right on time =)
training was rather all right i guess?
was feeling rather lethargetic though.
thank God we didn't do lots of runs today =)
after training,
jan, qinyi and i left for dinner!
ate at pizza hut.
sheesh,
just when i wanted to save my cash up.
but at least it will cut off the treat i owed qinyi! teehee.
chatted, talked, the usual.
left for home thereafter.
Even the best fall down. sitting on the bus, shutting everything out. listening to what ever my player delivers. just wondering if you still cared, wondering if you even ever cared. off to do my english essay.
~``So close. I believe.
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There are the Models,
and the Athletes,
also the Musical Inclined,
not to mention the Intellectual.
I'm back!=)
Bangkok's fun!
i shall talk about it tomorrow when i'm wide awake.
i hope=)
ave been waking up at 7am the past few days,
and have been walking till like late late afternoon.
i'm tired!
qinyi told me there's training in the afternoon tomorrow!
and it's a MUST to go
cos it's another selection for the next matches.
my stamina! RAH!
haven't exactly been training my stamina.
there's something about you that's in my head. somehow, i do think of you. and i wonder if you think about me too.shall continue tomorrow.
till then.
~``Unfailing Words.
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Jokes and Riddles.
great,
tomorrow i'll be leaving for bangkok all ready.
i'm so excited,
yet i don't feel like leaving.
i can't wait to shop =)
my average is really horrible.
shouldn't talk about it.
played tennis with julia and clare today =)
3pm-6pm!
well, not exactly 3 hours,
but around there.
it was fun!
gosh, i wish i can play tennis forever.
we made a new scandal for Qinyi =D
so exciting!
teehee.
oh, and qinyi if you are reading this,
please give me your old uniform!
thanks!
thanks for waiting with me janice =)
ok, this post is really in pieces.
i'm trying to remember what happened today.
well,
when Uncle Ronald asked if they knew how i played those, or if they even knew i could play pieces like those,
i couldn't reply him.
cos i was totally not sure,
if they were ever listening to me.
i wish they appreciated how much effort i put into this.
i wish they would just sit there and hear what i have to say through those pieces.
seriously,
i don't think they pay attention to what i have been playing these past few years,
or maybe months.
i guess Uncle Ronald's encouragements have really made a great impact on me.
thanks loads =)
kinda think of it,
they have never seen me play a netball match,
after 4 years in this game.
tsk.
ah well.
they are busy anyway.
anyway,
i won't be blogging till wednesday.
so take care and hope everyone will enjoy their holiday =)
till then.
~``Hide me under Your wings
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Walking Away.
I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!
I'M FINALLY SCARY LOOKING!!
YAY YAY!!
TEEHEE.
i don't believe this.
i'm always laughing yet i'm considered scary! =D
so exciting.
the most interesting thing i've heard this year!
YESTERDAY
was JOYCE THE JOKE'S birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOKE!
may you be more amusing as the days go by x)
sports heats!
shiyun and i were supposed to run TOGETHER for 200m,
but she totally ran through the whole thing!
and she's in!
teehee.
our relay team came in second!
Vic, Minghwee and joyce,
you guys ran well!
my foot still hurts and so does my thighs man.
sheesh.
TODAY,
it was rather all right.
lessons were quite slacked.
we had two free periods since Miss Poon didn't come.
darn, socials is fun when she teaches it.
chapel was different today.
the truth ministry came.
after school,
dad sent me for dental.
thereafter,
he sent me to clare's house for tennis!
gosh,
tennis is so fun.
it was ju's first lesson =)
anyway, rachLIM, abi, caro and minghwee had their lesson after ours.
went home thereafter.
just done with lian bi =)
i shall be going off to do more math and practice my keyboard=D
I'm Not walking.
~``More than words can express.
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Who Am I
by Casting Crowns
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
it feels so great to know that i have such a great heavenly father,
who i can turn to.
i'm Abba's Child =)
now that's comforting.
TODAY,
it was another usual day.
we spent 2 periods doing iq stuff!
super fun.
recess was funny.
cos i saw joyce bang right into the rubbish bin xD
it was seriously funny!
and she started hitting me xD
the rest of the day was fine really.
geog was real messy.
we were crushing, chewing, unlayering pounding and breaking food stuff!
class ended at 3.30pm.
wow.
training thereafter.
was kinda slackish i believe?
it started to rain so we did some physical.
had some issues so in the end we ended training with,
10minutes of resistance?
it was a long story.
shall not write about it.
after training,
Janice, Julia, Qinyi, Shiyun and I went to gardens' macs.
the usual =)
played i spy!
teehee.
left at around 7.40pm.
home.
it's just like dejavu.
adapting to what's going on now.
i know my God made a way for me =)
I get it.
I understand it fully,
not wholeheartedly.
~``My dad =)
Charms
Watching Moulin Rouge now.
That show never fails to make me feel so sad.
it's another sappy love story.
yet it's still good =)
Never knew I could feel like thisLike I've never seen the sky beforeWant to vanish inside your kissEvery day I love you more and moreListen to my heart, can you hear it sing?Telling me to give you everythingSeasons may change, winter to springBut I'll love you until the end of timeCome what may, come what mayI will love you until my dying daySuddenly the world seems such a perfect placeSuddenly it moves with such a perfect graceSuddenly my life doesn't seem such a wasteIt all revolves around you.And there's no mountain too highNo river too wideSing out this song and I'll be there by your sideStorm clouds may gather and stars may collideBut I'll love you (I'll love you) until the end of timeCome what may, come what mayI will love you until my dying dayOh, come what mayCome what mayI will love you, (I will love you)Suddenly the world seems such a perfect placeCome what may, come what mayI will love you until my dying daysappy love song xD
a sweet love song.
Rewrite It.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE!!!!
teehee.
i've got your present!
shall pass it to you tomorrow =)
Today,
church as usual.
Abba's Child, once again.
after church we went over to Marina Square to have lunch.
the place's called Yuki Yuki if i'm not wrong.
stayed there for 3 hours.
gosh,
calvin and paul are seriously gayyy.
and nic has butter fingers!
she dropped the whole plate into the sizzling pan thing xD
Aunt Beng's long lost friend came as well.
thereafter,
we left for home.
nic and chris and aunt beng wanted to go to mellinia,
so i was left with the 4 guys.
how odd.
but nevertheless,
they were sweet enough to wait for my train to come before they left =)
oh, and thanks for holding my bag paul and zaiwei! teehee.
met candice at citylink,
with her
boyfriend brother x)
so sat the train back with ronald.
he was still hungry after the buffet!
and he wanted to have ice cream.
see, the soft side of him xD
so we went to kovan to have ice cream.
sat where u6's usual spot was.
sat there till, 6pm?
around there.
chatted loads.
left for home thereafter.
heard that there's bad news about the old house.
shucks.
Lord, let a miracle happen, please?
Still can't forget you, and i won't. you are still somewhere in my head. and will always be.awkward silences,they don't solve it at all. i wish.i wish i could just turn back time. How can i hate you, and love you at the same time.oh,
i lost my set of rings and bracelet today =(
my u6 ring
the LOTR ring char gave me
and the bracelet Candice gave me =(
~``Hold me in Your arms
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Hold On.
Does crying really help. I don't know if it does now. Somehow, you're affecting me. And I don't know why. Why do you mean so much. You don't give a damn. You don't care anymore. You don't even glance. Seriously, I want to know what i mean to you. You mean something to me, That's why i'm feeling this way.
I miss you.
Yet you don't know about it.
You don't care about it.
TODAY,
i went for dental in the morning.
lonnngggg story.
but yeah, met janice at 12.30pm at hougang mall when we were SUPPOSED to meet at 11.30am. xD
anyway,
did the surveys with her.
at Hougang Mall and Serangoon Central.
gosh,
met lots of weird people.
and some funny thing happened at the library.
we wanted to ask the counter lady the questions so we figured that borrowing a book will make more sense for us to queue to talk to her.
when we went up to her,
and i was searching frantically for my card,
and when we handed the book and card to her,
she was laughing at us.
then we realized that we don't queue to borrow books anymore,
we go to the damn machine.
-.-
gosh, it was super embarrassing!
the lady actually laughed at us!
anyway,
met up with Theodora, Joanne and Su Ann at j8.
they bought a cake for jan!
teehee.
then we sang real loudly in coffee bean =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE JANICE!!!!
i don't know what 'll ever do without you man =)
LOVE lots!
oh,
Thanks for the shirt su ann! =)
so we went around surveying more people.
saw Irwin! teehee.
he's like SUPER tan, and SUPER ah beng now.
gosh.
i can't believe he's my cousin xD
it was fun though we were rejected at times.
nevertheless,
most of the people were nice enough to help us =)
ate at macs.
jan left earlier.
so the 4 of us chatted for a while more before we left for home.
went home with joanne and theodora.
thereafter,
had to go to the primary school to get some cert.
we told them that we had to rush somewhere else so that we could take the cert without going through the whole ceremony xD
went to toa payoh thereafter.
just to have dessert xD
went home thereafter.
so here i am.
and hernshung never fails to make me feel stupid!
he just tricked me again.
DARN!
~``Into Your courts I run with, praises flowing from my heart =)
Charms
It's gonna be all right,
Cos I know my God saved the day
And I know His word never fails
And I know my God made a way for me =)
Something to be happy about =)
Numb.
Believe Me.
I'm seriously lost for words.
not sure what i should do.
caught in the middle,
with choices i wonder in which i don't know which to pick.
ARGH!
well,
i'm getting an average of 50+.
i think i'm one of the lowest in my class.
gosh, it's not like as if i didn't study.
ah well.
what's done's done all ready.
somehow it has just made me want to study doubly hard now.
school's been great, thanks to the friends i have =)
hey mates! thanks for making school fun =)
This week was rather all right i guess.
on monday,
Jan, Ju, Qinyi, Shiyun and Doralynn came over to play tennis!
teehee. how fun =D
Wednesday,
Joanne and Theodora went over to play tennis! x)
it was real fun!
gosh, it's tennis week xD
Thursday,
Went to Jack's Place to have lunch with Jan, Ju and Qinyi.
we were playing this 'if you were a guy, what name will suit you best' game! xD
so here's the verdict:
Janice- Ken!
Julia- Parker! [note: please say it slowly to avoid the mispronunciation xD]
Qinyi- Martin!
Me- James!
teehee. how funny. had a fun time with them =)
especially when Qinyi was filling up the comment card and there was this MENU KNOWLEDGE thing! xD was laughing loads xD
it's a private joke =D
had music. i guess it's the only comforting thing which i've heard for the past month.
Uncle Ronald praised me lots =)
it's really comforting, to hear that someone does appreciate my play.
they changed the damn syllabus.
and well,
i'm ready to take up the challenge =)
there was one thing Uncle Ronald said which really caught my attention,
"[they] think they are the best,
but guess what, we've got news for them.
They aren't"
=)
Today,
stayed back in school to train the sec ones with Jan, Ju, Qinyi and Jiajun.
they are improving, really.
hymm, i think they should just learn to do things in the time limit.
so that they won't do so much pumping.
tsk.
looking back,
our seniors were much harder on us when we were in sec one.
i remembered the early morning trainings we used to have,
and we had phobias of them cos every morning,
we knew that it would be physical.
and their physical's like, whoa.
that track! the conditioning we used to have.
gosh,
it seemed like as if it was such a long time ago.
kinda think of it,
it was only two years ago.
went to macs with Ju, Qinyi and Jiajun after we flagged a cab for janice.
went to withdraw money with ju.
by the time we got back,
qinyi was all ready gone.
so we chatted at macs and jiajun's really really animated! xD
went home with ju at around 8.40pm.
i'm tired.
SHEESH.
P.S
to Ivan: cheer up yes? =D
~``You make me wanna dance =)
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