Saturday, December 31, 2005
//EDITED. -31st December
Dear You,
I'm going to rewrite this whole post,
cos i know that i missed out a lot of things i wanted to say
and it just flowed out of me this morning.
Well,
i have to say that it was really mean of me to miss out all the sweet things you did for me.
let's start from the beginning:
thanks for calling me when i was crying that day. it was kind of unexpected, but hey, you did make me smile.
thanks for those sweet messages you sent before which made me laugh =)
well i can't say that i didn't have something for you.
but i guess it's gone now.
cos of some stuffs along the way, i guess.
anyway,
thanks for the jacket really =)
i know you went through a lot to get it.
and well,
just want to say thanks.
and,
i'm sorry if i made you upset.
so sorry.
and yes,
i believe you should know who i referring to now,
ivan.
Charms
Lukewarm.
I wish i could type everything i really feel like typing.
ARGH.
ah well.
i shall just
shut up,
close my eyes,
cover my ears,
and hope this will pass soon.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
No darlings.
I'M BACK.
yes, and i was not happy.
about the damn holiday.
so much for a great christmas.
sigh.
but well, christmas isn't about material things anyway.
so the trip wasn't that great.
even my dad said so.
oh well.
it even started with an argument.
wow. what a great way to start the holiday huh.
and then we had loads of arguments during the trip.
shall not elaborate more.
~``Hold on, to you.
charms
Friday, December 23, 2005
[tag replies below]
Hey mates,
i'll be on holiday from 24th to the 28th of December.
yes, i won't be spending Christmas in Singapore this year.
and i won't be going for training camp either, except for the last day.
so i just wanna wish you guys
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
yeah,
will so miss you people here.
and yes, i will enjoy my holiday and not think so much =)
LOVE.
TAG REPLIES
Hernshung: Hey Metro Rugger! xD thanks for everything ya! anyway, the spoon trick's crazy la! OH and Marcus Beaumont is cute. BLOND! and so is BARRY! xD shh, don't tell him i said that xD you have a great trip to Bangkok too. take care!
Janice: DOPEY!!! it's been a long time since i last saw you! i think it's like, 2 days already?! SOB! i didn't tell you i was going to meet julia, cos i know that you will be too tired to come! xDD what an excuse xD anyway, take care!
Vic: HEHE! now you're are not evil anymore! xDD anyway, i miss you loads and MERRY CHRISTMAS to you too! LOVE!
Yanyi the JEDD xD: HELLO! you dope la you. always trying to make up stories online xD anyway, MERRY CHRISTMAS! and yeh, i'll try and get you guys stuff! take care!!
Julia: JU!x) it was great catching up with you man! yeh, we will call janice along if she can even wake up! LOVE!
Jamie: are you under uncle ronald too?! teehee! what a small little world! and i didn't know until like sept or something! xD
done.
*lotr is so cool*
Left my fears beside the road.
Hear You speak,
I won't let go.
Fall to my knees as i lift my hands to pray.
I've got everything reason to be here again.
Father's love,
That draws me in.
All my eyes wanna see is a glimspe of You.
All i need is You.
and it goes on.
i'm tired.
my sis woke me up at 10.30am.
thanks man.
so i only had 6 hours of sleep.
WOW.
-thanks for listening yesterday, shung and jestyn =)
sketchbook.
You pushed those walls down
That caved me in.
Everywhere i go,
You've already been.
I'm just so blind not to see,
That You've always been here next to me.
How can I esacpe from Your unfailing love?
That reaches to the skies above.
I know You are there,
I know You are here, with me.
charms
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Happy Beginnings with Bitter Endings.
Stuff like these,
they never end,
don't they.
i was out in the morning =)
went to meet Julia!
yes,
and if she didn't wake me up,
i would have been sleeping till don't know what time!
anyway,
had a catch up session with julia =))
ate at macs.
hoo boy.
then we left to heatland,
she had to return some vcds,
and we sat at our not-so-usual place xD
walked around heartland trying to find gifts!
after that, we sat somewhere near the bus stop.
we were looking at the salvation army guy.
and i felt so bad cos i didn't have any cash in my wallet at all.
not even 10 cents.
WOW.
so ju donated 1.50 =)
so we sat there,
and chatted,
till it started to rain real heavily.
left for home thereafter.
-secrets kept safely dear julia =)
anyway,
was soaking wet when i came home.
seriously.
and i was wearing white.
so it was translucent, transparent?!
but hey,
it was fun walking in the rain.
cold too.
baked, made, etc.
shan't elaborate.
i'm tired!
talking to shung now.
he's funny man.
~``Against the Odds.
charms
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Anti-clockwise.
Wish all you want,
but it will never happen.
TAG REPLIES
Nicole: Hello =) yep, i link-ed you! take care ya =)
Guanyu: Hey! Thanks for popping by!
Hernshung: Hey Flash! -points at cheek- watch me bend a spoon! [looks hard at the spoon] damn. nothing's happening. Hope that we can meet up soon! take care!
Janice: Janice! i realize i see you every 24 hours man! xD
Cheryl: of course you don't owe clare and me cartel. tsk. YOU OWE US A CARTEL AND COFFEE BEAN TREAT! by the way, it's not only clare and me, it's jiajun and qinyi as well! xDD thanks for paying for my cab xD
Julia: Hey dearieee!! i miss you too!
Sokyi: Sokyi!!! it's been LONG! i miss you loads!
Vic: vic you very evil la! how can you say that about jestyn! anyway, there's nothing going on between ivan and i so why can't jestyn be there! so evil la!
Done.
well,
to start the day off,
i was trying to flag a damn cab for 1/2 an hour.
and finally,
i decided to walk over to hougang mall to get a cab.
i wasn't the latest to arrive,
but hey i was still late xD
played with Gan Eng Seng =)
SIN YEE'S SCHOOL!
oh gosh,
i miss her so much.
it's been like, a year or so? i guess,
since we have seen her =)
i miss the good times we used to have.
well,
that wasn't the only memory which came back.
the thought of even going back to Kallang Netball Centre was a memory itself.
i remember the times we used to go there,
with beelian.
gosh.
it's been a year already.
time does fly.
i remember the feeling i used to get when we arrive there and wait to play.
gosh. butterflies everywhere man!
i remember the times we used to have our team talk after every match.
well,
i can distinctly remember 2 matches we played then.
one would be the St. Hilda's match,
and the other, needless to say,
would be the Damai match.
the two extreme games.
i wish we could have just turned back time.
just one more goal! ARGH!!
but hey,
no use brooding over the past huh.
what's done's done.
anyway,
i guess the Gan Eng Seng match was alright =)
i was rather surprised i wasn't tired out or something.
i mean,
i haven't been training!
and neither have i been going to the gym or working out.
so today was a good wake up call =)
thereafter,
we went to KFC.
Janice, Clare, Shiyun and i were sitting together.
teehee!
it was seriously funny.
they were singing the IF I WERE GAY song
and clare even played it from her phone! xD
oh gosh.
and we were just having a great laughing session there =D
thereafter,
we went to meet jillian and dionne =)
CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!
to wisma once again,
then to PS.
had fun being with them =)
i managed to get quite a few presents!
sat at macs.
we were creating poems!
LAULAU!
ah well.
dionne left when we went to PS.
and for jilly and dionne's churchies,
i think they will laugh when they receive their presents.
literally. xDD
i can't imagine how hard they are going to laugh.
especially abner's!
whoa,
jillian, janice and i were laughing so dead hard in carrefour! xDD
it seemed like as if we bought the whole of takashimaya and carrefour!
BIG bags man.
went home thereafter =)
was sorta caught in the rain!
but thank God it wasn't that heavy then =)
~``My Lullaby.
charms
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
So Near, Yet So Far.
i can't set my mind straight.
so that's that.
anyway,
today i woke up at 9.30am.
and guess what,
i decided to wash the clothes.
so i did.
and was doing some stuff online,
and planning my christmas list,
and watching tv at the same time.
HAH! see, girls CAN multi task alright!
anyway,
was at home the whole morning.
left home around 2.30pm to orchard.
met up with Jilly first.
poor her!
she felt really uncomfortable cos she felt like belching.
so we went to a toilet first.
and seriously,
i think it's like some rush hour in the toilets or something.
so many people queueing!
but thank God we came 2 minutes earlier cos the toilet wasn't so crowded then =)
so jilly puked 4 times and she was alright!
anyway,
after that we went to meet the rest of them.
Hernshung and Jestyn were already there.
then came Dionne,
and then Abner.
then! it wasn't janice next,
it was like this girl who talks faster than jillian!
she was asking us to donate,
but i really couldn't understand anything she was saying.
"hi, i'm froermdfl fdomad skjflk. This are childruilnsi isdiomc...."
and it goes on. i could only hear bits and pieces of it.
so did jestyn and hernshung lor! they were even GIGGLING at her la! xD
but anyway,
they donated 10 bucks.
and Janice came xD
we walked out of wisma,
on the streets,
to no where?
yes.
but in the end we decided to walk to PS.
OH!
and jillian, janice, dionne and i are easy targets for those donating people!
seriously!
so we decided to stand behind hernshung everytime they ask,
cos nobody seems to ask him!
went to PS and walked AROUND.
stopped at the christian store and YAMAHA,
and went to BK thereafter.
sat there and laughed our heads off.
they are seriously funny people!
Janice and Dionne had to leave early.
stayed there for a rather long time?
then we walked around PS again. that level rather.
i bought jilly's present!
and so did Jilly!
cos we bought each other the same thing xDDD
we love that shirt!
and while the 3 guys wee waiting for us
they went to action city to get don't know what.
xD
went to heartland thereafter.
it was hilarious in the mrt xD
and Hernshung's bag flashes!
FLASHER!
xD
heartland-ed,
and jestyn kept laughing when i told him that i'm superman -.-
FINE LA!
so he went a bit nutty thereafter.
Abner was like, HUH?
when we told him he was green lantern,
and jilly batman,
and shung Flash,
and dionne wonderwoman,
and janice, i forgot!!
but together,
we form the justice league.
-runs.
had a pitstop at some magic shop.
we were so dead amazed at the tricks he was doing,
i loved the spoon one.
haha.
but hey, i shan't elaborate? =)
Home thereafter =)
still talking ot them online!
they are really funny people =)
and playing pool with jestyn! xD
Jillian, Janice, Dionne, Jestyn, Abner and Hernshung:
Thanks for everything ya!
you funny people =D
~``You pushed them down.
charms
*lotr is so cool*
Monday, December 19, 2005
Let Go.
Please?
I'M BACK!!!!!!!
TAG REPLIES
[NOTE: after tag replies, it's going to be a damn long post =) ]
Doralynn: Hey man! what are friends for? =) take care ya! love!
Jill: two is not enough!!!!! teehee! it was seriously fun getting to know you more! you and xinnie sure are one funny pair! x)) take care!
Jamie: hey! are you taking guitar? or keyboard? x) uncle ronald told me la! cos he knows both of us are in netball too x)
Clare: please la! the courts not nice la! it's so darnit stuffy!! no indoor courts! unless there's air con! or more air pockets around!
Minghwee: hey man! i miss youuu!! i think we are going to meet tomorrow? =) take care ya =) Love!
Charis: hey you! i miss you! hope to meet up with you soon!! take care ya =) LOVE!
Vic: VICTORIA WONG LILY! you shut up la you! damn. i miss you so much!!! and there's NOTHING going on la! i missss youuu!!! p.s even Miss Terri KOH agrees that all KOHs are SMART and NICE! xD love!
Sinyee: oh gosh! i miss you!!! it's been MONTHS man! how have you been? =) you take care ya! LOVE you loads =)
Janice: YOU AH! I MISS YOU TOO! haven't seen you for like, 17 hours already! xDDD
alright =) they are done =))
now it's time to talk about the camp! =)
generally,
the camp was a blast =)
though i had lots of suanning sessions [ 'special thanks' to Hernshung and fellow others]
xD
the people there are really really nice =)
and it was really really great!
hope i'll be able to keep in contact with them =)
THURSDAY
janice came really really late!
jillian, dionne, christabel and shalom had to leave for the games comm meeting,
so i sat with Eliza [thornberry] x)
and she thought jilly and i are sisters! hahaha!
she thought i was jilly's older sis xD
OH! and she's in HIHS!
-sniggers.
ANYWAY,
camp started with all the dirty games and stuff.
our group name's EGKRATEIA [ pronounced as 'ehg-kra-cheer']
it means self control in, greek? yes.
jilly and dionne was saying that it sounded like
'I CRUSH HER' if you say it real fast lots of times xD
abner and jestyn were our group leaders =)
so we had loads of flour+water games!
our group had only 2 girls and 7 guys,
so we didn't really need to do much.
haha.
had a session at night.
it was about LOVE =)
about God's Love and Parental Love =)
God Forgives.
+ forgiven so that i can forgive =)
alright!
so the next day was like amazing race.
before that,
we had another session.
then the amazing race!
it was seriously funny la!
i'm really really tired to list everything out,
so here are some main points at every station:
Chinatown- esther couldn't find the store cos it closed down! and we ahd to drink like almond juice! EWW.
Toa Payoh- uneven was telling us how slow we were! and we had to sing a christmas carol xD
Esplanade- Wei Cheng just had to lie to us la! best! he told us to go the other way when actually jillian and dionne were right behind him!
Orchard - took neoprints! the guys look seriously funny la xD
Airport - find 6 S restaurants
and there's one more station i can't remember what!
oh well.
but it was rather fun =)
i think we were the second best =))
anyway,
was slacking in the bunk,
seirously, jillian, dionne, janice, christabel and shalom are damnit funny people!
had fun talking to them! =)
so went down for supper.
and got totally suanned up at the table!
thanks alot huh hernshung! [note the sarcasm] xD
third day,
we had bedok methodist's youth band to come.
i shan't elaborate, really.
but one thing: the bassist is, AH! x))
tall and toot! xDD
no offence really x)
played games at bishan park.
we were totally winning group 7! xDD
was fun and dirty. haha.
Last day,
we had like some testimonial thing.
and jan and i went up! HAHA.
went for serivce,
and because all of us nly slept for 2 hours,
so all 6 of us were sleeping!
oh gosh,
i felt damn bad,
but when i realize that the other 5 of them were sleeping,
i went back to sleep xDD
but after the service,
we were kinda high?!
cos we were singing SONGS!
while waiting for jestyn's turn to be baptized =)
-congrats jestyn! x)
ate lunch in church,
they catered food again.
waited for them to finish their meeting,
so jan and i were talking to hernshung.
left at 3.30.
HOME!
but after that,
i went to kent ridge park to meet nic =)
and her family too.
HOME thereafter.
was seriously tired man.
Jillian, Janice, Dionne, Christabel and Shalom:
you guys are seriously sweet =)
thanks for all the fun times we had together!
love!
i'm really tired to blog anymore.
so here it is =)
~``You forgive. You love.
charms
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Your eyes,
they tell tales.
would you believe me if i told you that my dad wears a pair of levi's jeans and a pair of adidas superstars, my mum wearing adidas tops and a body glove slack, and my sis a taitai?
i don't believe it myself.
xD
TAG REPLIES
Vic: you ass! a fellow KOH is ALWAYS smart xDD i miss you man.
Jill: Hey! you bought only one right?!?!
Preggy: hey =) i really REALLY wonder huh! i'll find out anyway!
Janice: thanks for making my blogskin-to-be! love!
Jamie: hey! you are so slow! i have been there since primary 1! so it's like, 8 years? haha. i know you are playing there too x)
Clare: OUI, i think you are having a fever now xD you have never been so happy over a match xD
Cheryl: hey =) i think it's an imposter. either that, or clare's being brainwashed xD
alrighty.
talk about the SSS match?
MONDAY
SSS match.
woke up at 6am.
left at 6.30am.
was snoozing on the bus man!
was seriously tired.
and went to ang mo kio mrt.
met cheryl there.
so we went to woodlands thereafter.
oh and guess what!
only 6 seniors!
WOW.
alright, before i jump to that,
let me talk about SSS!
it's BIG.
i mean, it's only for 235 students?
their canteen's already bigger than our hall.
-.-"
and they even have their own SCIENCE CENTRE in their school!
alrighty,
i realize that it's not that great to play in an indoor court!
it's really REALLY suffocating.
with only one door open,
no fan, no air con,
yeh it's suffocating.
oh gosh,
after like only 2 half courts,
i was like huffing and puffing.
breathing really hard and stuff.
anyway,
jiale had to fill in as a GS for us.
well, it was a good experience man.
my center is TALL man!
i mean, mid fielders are not usually tall!
and she's like,
1/2 a head taller than me.
oh gosh.
i was like SHORT next to her man.
and they are all rather lengthy!
and this is the first time i couldn't breathe on court.
and it was rather scary,
cos you get all dizzy and chest pained.
so i rested during the 3rd quarter.
and FINALLY
the 4th quarter, it was a full b div.
QINYI! SHE ONLY CAME AFTER THE 2ND QUARTER!
but at least she came =)
anyway,
we were reprimanded by ms chua for a few things.
i'm really lazy to elaborate,
so you can check the other players' blogs.
and cheryl so owes us a cartel treat!
i shot in from the back of the goal line alright!
and she didn't see it when qinyi and clare saw it!
DAMN!
went to PS with the 4 others.
jenny and jiajun met us thereafter.
went to MOS.
seriously,
that place is filled with netball memories =)
beelian, we miss you =)
damn.
alright, after that,
we went to walk around carrefour.
thereafter,
we left for our seperate ways.
clare, jiajun and i left for NEL,
qinyi, cheryl and evan left for EWL.
clare jia jun and i dropped at serangoon.
jiajun was sweet enough to accompany me to coffee bean =)
had a fun time talking to her=)
she's WEIRD.
weird i tell you.
and she claims she had a weird dream about me,
and she even smacked herself right after she woke up xDDD
i really REALLY wonder what that dream was about man.
jia jun, thanks for your company!
met ivan and jestyn thereafter.
they are damn funny people really =)
they were laughing at almost everything.
stayed with them for 2 hours or so.
left for home.
TODAY
i was at home in the morning acting like some couch potato.
went to holland v with my family for dinner.
that's that huh.
too tired to blog.
so the truth's out huh.
i mean, it was predictable.
it a matter of making that person say it personally.
gosh, this is really really crazy.
i don't know,
but don't you think,
ARGH.
forget it.
i might stir up confusion and chaos here.
oh,
and if you are reading doralynn,
please take care of yourself.
cheer up.
i'm here if you need me.
love.
Charms
charms
Sunday, December 11, 2005
What will you do if you were caught in two,
and sooner or later you have to decide on just one,
but both have their pros and cons,
and you are not sure which to choose.
argh.
oh well,
i guess i don't want to talk about it.
another dead end?
yeh sure.
gosh, i have to get to woodlands by 8am tomorrow.
by public transport.
damn.
i think i'm going to wake up at 6am?
or probably earlier than that.
i'm tired,
but i don't feel like sleeping.
i don't know,
i mean everytime my mind drifts,
i keep thinking about it.
argh.
sometimes i wish you just give me a sign.
at least i know what's going in your head.
REALLY.
hell.
i think i'm just thinking too much.
Saturday, December 10, 2005
it's been long since i talked to vic.
and hoo boy,
i miss talking to her man.
xDD
I LOVE YOU!
today's been good =)
God's good ya =)
YES.
i'm done with english homework! xD
*glees.
Friday, December 09, 2005
TAG REPLIES =)
moyi: pl pri netball2003 HAS to meet up soon! ms kok's ALWAYS busy! coach mun i mean xD
Jedd: HELLO! thanks for the strightjacket feeling song! i love it!!
Ju: yes ju, i know you WERE behind me xDD
Preggy: HEY! i don't know! it's up to you!
Jan: hymm, how about a GRAFFITI theme?! xD oh! and marcus beaumont's cute man! Oh! and guess what?! i don't know why i miss you! xDDD
Christine: hey man! haha! pics travel fast don't they? x)
Clare: HEY MAN! wth! HAHA! i wish i saw the nan hua match!!! yeh i heard about the change of day for the SSS match! *glees x)
civ: I BET YOU ARE VICTORIA WONG LILY!! xDD thanks ya!!! LOVE!
I'M FREE!
it feels good man.
oh gosh,
i seriously SERIOUSLY have to thank God.
He's THE MAN xDD
ok, it wasn't as bad as i expected it to be.
i wasn't that nervous when i was there.
was talking to this girl called Jessica? that's her name i think.
and to aunt christina and this lady called Patricia.
and 3 ladies came, they are vocalists,
and they are really funny xD
well,
when it was my turn,
i was sorta shaking a bit xD
and Dr Howard's a seriously nice guy.
i think he's one of the nicest examiners around!
started with scales,
and he was so sweet to give me C MAJOR.
i thought my ears wee like blocked or something.
i was wondering "C MAJOR?! you really have got to be kidding me!"
but hey!
since he DID say c major,
i decided not to make him change his mind xDD
and all the scales and arpeggios were so unexpected =)
he's really nice.
REALLY nice.
and thank God uncle Ronald lent me THE RED BOOK.
inverted mordent!
HEHE.
went to jilly's home thereafter to make rice krispies.
hang on,
it's not called rice krispies anymore,
it's called rice krispz.
yeh, jestyn changed it xDD
so jill, jan and i made rice krispz.
i didn't do much, really. xD
but it was fun!
after janice left,
jill and i were wondeirng what those statues should do xD
it's going to be hilarious man.
dad fetched me thereafter and went for dinner at gardens.
GYM thereafter.
just for awhile.
~``You're listening
Thursday, December 08, 2005
i feel so stupid!
all along i have been depending on myself so much,
when actually i could have just depended on God.
oh gosh,
i feel so stupid!
You were there all along.
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
ARGH!
i wish friday won't come.
i can't work under stress.
RAH.
alright, no matter how much i seem to practice, it doesn't seem to get right.
~trust.
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Happy Ending.
oh gosh,
my parent's are starting to like adidas man!
my mum bought more tops there than me!
and my dad just bought himself a blue superstar xDD
dennis says he's like some small kid. HAHA
he's my dad man x)
Sunday we went around novena square and united square.
i think my mum and sis bought 1/2 the store of YEN.
SERIOUSLY.
even the lady recognized them!
while they were they,
my dad, dennis and i went to the adidas store.
ate at genki sushi with my 5th uncle's family!
and shopped AGAIN.
and well,
we did buy LOTS xDD
my sis and dennis left
and my parents and i went to meet uncle beng seng and aunty beng for dinner at SURF AND TURF [that's in suntec]
YESTERDAY
met up with clare and ju at heartland.
janice yue and seetoh qinyi were supposed to be there.
but jan overslept and qinyi couldn't make it.
so ju, clare and i left to the nippon paint store.
bought paint.
i went for music for 2 hours.
damn! my fingers are getting longer xD
anyway,
rushed to school to help with the banner.
jan,ju,clare,doralynn,renee and dionne were doing our oh so lovely banner xD
its base is orangey yellow!
so i guess it will strike out the most x)
anyway,
we had to clear the paint on our bodies, floor, sink etc.
the turpentine stinks!
so cleared and left school,
just me jan and ju x)
left for KFC.
and hoo boy, ju was so damn HIGH.
janice was showing us her new toy!
laughing at the MTVs and just having a good time xD
jan left thereafter.
and i was telling ju,
"psst ju! i'm leaking!!"
and she was really REALLY high,
ju: WHA?! YOU ARE THE KING?! HAHAHA!
and i was like,
what the hell?!!! no! i'm LEAKING!
HAHAHA
it was damn funny la.
so rushed to the toilet and stuff and went home thereafter.
TODAY, i'm at home,
praticing my keyboard and stuff.
ARGH.
i want saturday to come without friday coming first!
or maybe i should get over and done with it.
ARGH.
~``Source of strength
Friday, December 02, 2005
MARCUS BEAUMONT, EVERYONE!
he's a seriously great guitarist!!! xDDD
ah,
there's so many things to write about.
forgive me for missing out almost all the events which happened these pass few weeks.
anyway,
it's been really tight, packed, whatever you call it.
and i hope this week will end SOON.
I LOVE CHRISTINE!!!
thanks for the pic man!!