Classique.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

argh!

and it's so damn true.
AHHH.
and it's horrid

i just wonder why you mean so much.
haha.
odd isnt it.

truth is.

i haven't gotten over you yet.

*lotr is so cool*

positive negativity.

there's so many things to talk about.
so many things to say.
but i'm just too lazy.
heh.

at least i updated xD

going off to do my homework now

~``my knight in shining amour.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Thursday, May 26, 2005

be a planet shaker. be a history maker.

i like that phrase.
=)
but sadly i forgot who said it.
oh well. =)

today was SUPER FUN.
i loved it!
it was the best field trip for the week!
caro and i loved it!
cos our guide was so damn nice
who gave us all the answers.
how sweet is that?!

then i MANAGED TO GOT THE STAR WARS TUMBLER!
HAHA
how childish eh. x)

went back to school
and played netball like nuts.
HAHA
it was damn fun.
and i think we won the friendly match.
=)
but it was a great game!

after that.
dad brought me to dental.
THANKS.
and i went around the WHOLE of singapore with him la. X)
and he sent me to music too.
fetched mum.
and after that we went to eat.

i'm damn sad.
really. honestly. truely.
i hate expectations.
i really do.
mum.dad.
i really thank you guys for not expecting me to get good grades.
but.
whatever you guys said just now.
it really struck me.
they honestly did.
and probably for the better for me to change?

i hate expectations.
maybe that's why you guys dont give me expectations for my grades.
but.
you guys give me expectation for something else.
something else which is really hard for me to do.
i will try.

oh.
if planetshakers and hillsongs united is noise,
i cant differentiate music from noise.

if only life can just be music.

~``love none can compare to.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

their names liveth for evermore.

today was sorta fine.
dad sent me to school this morning cos it was raining.
met up with jill.
IT'S BEEN AGES SINCE WE TALKED.
and she told me HER DREAM.
wth!
she had a really damn funny dream.
HAHA.
if only it was real?
=)

went to kranji war memorial, the hydroponics farm and some bukit timah place.
gosh.
it's sorta fun.
cos we took lots of pics!
=)
and i loved the part when we went to the kranji war memorial.
it's so damn sad.
gosh.
even guys at 16 years old died in battle.
sad.
just to protect us.
gosh.
how sad.
must salute them. =)

in memory of those who died for the country. =)

ok.
suddenly.
i have the urge not to type anymore.

after school.
went to coffee bean with jan, doralynn, clare, caro, lou, vic and ann na.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARO!!
ate.chatted.munched.laughed. xD
was fun.
yep.
so went home with jan and doralynn thereafter.

just let me cry.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Friday, May 20, 2005

i'm not going to be affected.

wth.
some people.
oh well. i'm just TOO lost for words for them.

met up with jill at 7am.
and we couldnt get a cab till 7.30am.
WOW.
and the walk-a-jog was supposedly starting at 7.30am.
and there was this HUGE jam at KPE.
WOW.
how great could things get.

but when we got there,
the jog only started like, 1 hour later.
gosh.
we felt like killing ourselves or something.

so i ran with my dear partner =)
and we came in 4th and 5th =)
OH.
and we had 19 netballers in the top 20 positions for all the levels.
WE MISSED JUST BY ONE PERSON.
JUST ONE.
that's really irritating.
shucks.
oh well.

so after the event,
jan,doralynn, clare and i left to mc cafe.
act civilised about it! xD
hanged around there for awhile.

then clare's mum fetched jan, doralynn and me to my home.
thanks =)
and they were just hanging around in my house.
and clare came awhile later.
and we played MARCO POLO. x)
it's been a long time since we played marco polo.
HAHA.
but it was fun. =)

clare left.
then janice and doralynn together.
walked them to the bus stop.

HOME.

*//Sometimes i wonder why i mean so much to you.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Thursday, May 19, 2005

one gone.
for now.

today.
morning training.
the same drill.
i thought i was late.
i was on the dot. =)

the day.
was super messed up.
honestly.
but at least we got things settled?
i really dont know.
all i can say is that.
we spoke our minds.
we did our part.
so i guess time will heal. soon. hopefully.
hatred. it's really amazing how it can break things up so easily.
oh well.

well,
art was fun today.
WOW.
for once in the whole year.
and for ONCE,
our co-tutor was acting like a co-tutor.
MIRACLE.
xD

after school.
played a bit of basketball with candice, vivian and their friend.
doralynn and me in one team.
and guess what?
we won.
wow. x)
haha.
but it was great game.
=)

waited for jan.
ju couldn't go out with us. =(
another time then =)

went to heartland thereafter.
hanged.
went for music.
doralynn sent me =)
thanks.

ate out.
so now.
i'm HOME.
and i'm BORED.
wow.
i'm going to play my guitar =)
i miss it. =)

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

I WAS NONCHALANT.
and
I STILL AM NONCHALANT.

hang.
i cant take it anymore.

HAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

okok.
i'm going nuts.

i was freaking nonchalant yesterday.
probably pmsing?
i dunno.

but I'M CURED NOW!
goodness.
that virus was far worst than my cough. =)
but i had a damn freaking good remedy. =)
thanks to my friends. and most importantly. God. x)
gosh.
without them.
i would have been some grouchy thing.
HAHA.

anyway.
today was good.
cos there was chinese.
and i dare not go to the pts now.
gosh.
all the freaking marks are there now.

after school.
went to heartland with jan and doralynn.
and i acted like some student that got sacked from school or something?!
had this big pile of books.
it was HEAVY.
ate at macs.
it was quiet there for ONCE. x)

then sat at the opposite shop of triangle's opposite.
ok, i'm getting confused.
x)

they helped me with my zuo wen.
thanks =)

went home with doralynn thereafter.
so here i am.
doing some errands for my dear friends.
=)

OH GOSH.
there's art tomorrow.
and art used to be great.
USED TO.

*//You made a way for me. =)

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

there's something holding back my smile.

darnit.
i dont know why i was so moody today.
something in my mind's just making me feel this way.
and the worst thing,
is that i dont know what.

i'm afraid to get back my report slip this time.
i'm dead gone for sure.

i can really feel the displeasure today.
AND I DONT KNOW WHY.
ohfreak.
i hate this feeling.

so had to go for the leadership course thing.
i slept. for awhile.
was feeling really drowsy.

after that,
went home.
alone. =)
doralynn walked me to the bus stop.
thanks =)

wow.
it's been a very VERY long time since i went home alone.
it's been more than a year?
i think so.
around there.

somehow,
everytime i have the chance to go home alone.
it gets me thinking of everything.
what's happening. what happened.
it's the time where i get to piece up everything in my mind.
so that everything fits.
and it always helps.

you know.
i may not know what's really holding me back from smiling.
but.
what's the use of sulking over nothing.
haha.
i hate being unhappy. =)

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Monday, May 16, 2005

it's confirmed.

didnt go to school today.
cos i was coughing madly yesterday.
parents wanted me to rest for a day.

so went ot the doc in the morning.
my dad said that the doctor must be really bored.

so here's the conversation between the doctor and me-

doc: i can see that you play outdoor sports from that tan of yours

me: yeh

doc: what sport?

me: netball *smiles widely

doc: what position do you play? GA, GD, ?

me: [shocked] mid field side, usually Center or Wing A.

doc: oh. i used to play GD, cos i didn't like running around. but i was a horrible GD, so they kicked me out of the school team.

me: *laughs. [act funny about it]

doc: [writes MC. stops. thinks for awhile] wait, so [starts drawing the netball court on a blank paper] the Center is here [points on circle] and which are the positions are here and there?!

so i told her where the other positions were.
and stuff.
so most of the time,
my dad and i were inside listening to her talking about netball.
and she was asking more questions about netball than how i am. HAHA.

funny doc.

after that,
went to have branch.
then went to sungei kadut cos of dad's client.
home.

end bloc is really going to happen.
going to shift into kuma's condo.
it's like 2 storey sorta.
and it's going to be damn cool.
cos i will have my own stairs to my room,
char will have a internal staircase to her toilet.
and a main staircase.

how cool is that?
and dad can make my walls sorta sound proof?
so i can jam in my room. x)

went home.
dad drew the interior of kuma's house
[note: he's a draftsman. ]
you know my dad,
detailed planning.
it's going to be cool.

but i'm going to miss this house.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Sunday, May 15, 2005

actually i had loads to write about.
but.
i went to pts.
[pts: performance tracking system]
and i dont really have the mood to blog now.

FREAKit.

but i tried.
i'm sad.

*//Help me through these.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Saturday, May 14, 2005

THANKS CHAR!! *hugs

AAAHHH!!
MY SIS BOUGHT ME THE LOTR RING!! AHHHH

thanks char!
without you,
i wouldn't know the meaning of torture.

without you,
i wouldn't have known what's love =)

i have LOADS to write about
so bear with me. =)

yesterday.
school. usual. =)
hymm. nothing really new. honestly.
so there was only one hurdle yesterday.
TRAINING.
oh well.
it wasn't so bad?
the first thing we did after warm up was
-suicidals
-pumping
-back razors
-skipping
-t defence
-rolling the ball thing
-touching the net
-coordination thing

actually,
it wasn't that bad.
thank God man.

anyway,
after training.
played a bit of soccer cum volleyball cum basketball thing.
and
doralynn's sweet enough to ask her mum to send me home.
THANKS!

so i reached home on time.
washed up and got ready to go to east coast park.
met up with christine, aunt beng and her darlings, paul and calvin.
ate a macs.
crapped A LOT.
were laughing at the skateboarders outside?
cos they were like performing stunts which they they haven't even mastered. x)

went to parkway area thereafter.
and paul drove the trajet?!
now that's HUGE.
had LOADS of space in the car.
=)

so we picked caleb and regina and went to the pool place.
and christine and i were kind of like underage.
oops. heh.
so we had to get out of there.
and paul was so sweet to miss his pool game just to company us at macs.
=)
thanks ancient friend. =)
you shouldn't have =)

anyway,
stayed at parkway area for a while.
and on the way down from the carpark.
yep.
some stuff happened. yep.
they sent me home.
waited for dad to come back.
so we hanged at the void deck.

was still hungry after they left.
so dad and i ate BREAKFAST.
wow.
=)

oh.
and i forgot to mention that dad got a job proposal from the sgh pathology?
now that's COOL.
I WANT TO GO AND SEE THE DEAD BODIES!!
ok.
that's creepy.
BUT I STILL WANT TO SEE HOW IT"S LIKE THERE!!

*//always and forever.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Thursday, May 12, 2005

i hate spring tests.

today was sorta fine.
morning training.
STEPS. freak. it reminds me of the training we had in primary school.
it reminds me of ms kok!
gosh.
*shivers.

didnt eat till 4pm. how great is that?
skipped recess cos we had to touch up on our puppets.
at least we got a decent grade =)
REPLAY. =)

the rest of the day was fine.
went for dental after school.
gosh.
and my teeth are aching very badly now.

hymm.
i decided to slack a bit today =)

thank God for free time =)

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

liquidfied.

morning training.
had to do this agility thing.
if we can beat it in 15 seconds, no training for one week. X)
but if it's above 19 seconds, extra training for the week.
oh well.
=)

today was pretty ok.

oh and i HAVE to write this down.

WHY THE HELL WAS ANN NA AND RACH LIM PLAYING WATER BOMBS OUTSIDE OUR CLASSROOM MAN?!

AND IT WAS DURING MRS STUBBINS' LESSONS?!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH

wth!
gosh.
my partner in crime, left evidence?! had a water bomb on the floor?!
and the floor was wet.
heh.
and of all periods,
it had to be mrs stubbins'.
HAHA.

ok, i feel mean.

sokyi helped me with me puppet! thanks!!
and guess what?
while i was trying to poke a hole,
the scissors slashed my finger.
another cut. wow.

dnt.
my work was unapproved.
so i have to redo it.

after school,
training.
it was STILL raining super heavily.
cancelled training! *grins.
HAHA.
so the sec2s were discussing about some IMPORTANT stuff. =)

so went to eat at serangoon garden's macs.
had a HOT FUDGE sundae.
and yes clare,
and hot fudge sundae had HOT fudge,
not COLD fudge.
hanged there till 5.

took 136 back with jan and doralynn.

took 113 home with doralynn.
did my puppet,
studied for geog.
hymm. i'm slacking.
=)

really have to thank God for everything.
honestly,
without Him,
i probably would have given up many things.
and i really thank God for having friends like mine. =)

*//i have no doubt about You. and never will. =)

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Monday, May 09, 2005

welcome to 'HAPPILY EVER AFTER' day.
and we are celebrating it, TODAY.

WOW.
guess what?
my dad just wants to scare the daylights out of me.
READ ON.

school was ok.
and i'm dratting it. tomorrow.
that's because of many MANY reasons.

anyway,
after school,
went to heartland with jan, doralynn, lizard and alicia.
ate at macs.
honestly,
i dont think i want to go back to macs.
i still prefer bk. =)
anyway,
chatted there.
laughed our heads off.
yep =)

went to take neos.
OH.
and after that,
i realized my phone wasn't with me.
PANICKS!!
okok.
act all calmed about it.

MY MESSAGES!!!!
MY PRECIOUS PHOTOS!!!
ARGH.

so called home.
to see if it was at home.
and my dad couldnt find it.
so jan and doralynn went home with me.
and guess what?
when i asked my dad if he found it,
he was like

'OH. i found it on your handphone holder. didnt know it was there. '
WOW.
thanks A LOT dad.
x)
but i'm glad i found my phone!!
my precious photos. gosh.
and those, messages.

anyway,
doralynn left for home.
waited down my block for jan's mum to come.
and doralynn called.

THERE'S THIS STALKER.
and honestly.
HE'S THE MOST STUPID STALKER WE HAVE EVER KNOWN.

HONESTLY.
if you dont know the art of stalking, DONT do it.

gosh.
what an idiot.
good thing she was alright.

talked with jan.
=)

did my lit stuff.
and intending to do art.
so i'll shall take my leave. =)

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Sunday, May 08, 2005

ok.
i'm up.
i'm awake.
at least i think i am. =)

CHURCH.
it's another sunday!
and guess what?
i wore a skirt to church today. HAHA.

had mother's day service.
so sat out.
and caile is damn not slow la.
after i cam into church for an hour,
then he realized that i was wearing a skirt.
WOW.
that's fast.
x)

service was short.
had all those skits and dances and everything.

OH.
and darryl can bake cakes!
WTH.
now that's cool.
and honestly, it tastes great.
gosh.
heh.

after church.
went to united square for lunch.
was crapping with nic, vic, caleb, calvin and paul and regina.
gosh.
they are damn funny.
laughed my head off. x)

doralynn met up with nic and me.
talked. chatted. laughed.
yep.
and went to cold storage to find my parents.

HOME.

school tomorrow!
ARGH.
somehow,
im trying to find something to look forward to.
but.
it doesnt seem to be getting to me.

Got me where you want me.
seriously.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Saturday, May 07, 2005

to me, rules are meant to be broken.
for you, promises are made to be broken.

morning.
went for dental.
gosh.
injections! x)
i hate them.
dr sim had to scrape off my gum cos my tooth doesnt want to come out fully.
AH.
but actually,
it wasnt that pain.
heh.

and doralynn called me
and teased me about talking with a numb mouth x)
oh.
hope you are feeling better.
headaches are really irritating.
=)

hymm.
went home.
then went out again to jill's.
then jan came.
so the 3 of us went to suntec. =)
jan's dad sent us there.
=)
thanks. x)

so hanged around there.
talked about loads.

WATCHED COACH CARTER!!
that show is so sweet!!!
i almost cried!
it's really sweet.
that's teamwork.
BUT
coaches can never watch this show.
cos they would give us bad punishments
like 1000 suicidal runs.

good luck to us man.

so after that.
went to citylink.
took a walk.
then we left for jill's home again!
=)

home thereafter.
it was fun. really. =)

back to reality.

oh.
by the way.
you can play your game.
cos.
i'll play your game. NOT.
not going to be a player in your little puppet show.
i've almost had enough.
we've almost had enough.
somehow,
i'm getting turned off.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Friday, May 06, 2005

freakit.
freakit.
freakit.

no. this is not happening. i dont want to hear it.
no. this is not happening.
it's just some nightmare.

i really have to write this.

i want to turn back 4 months ago.
i want to break your fall.
why the hell.
why.
why.
why.
why the hell is this happening?
when i heard it.
i wanted to cry.
why.
freakit.

all because of her?
because she hit you.
that's so not worth it.
freakit.
why.
why.
why.

getting out of hand.

all of us are hanging on this string.
no.
wait.
it's not a string.
it's just A fibre from the string.

and guess what?

it's going to break.

i'm at home.
YAY!
i feel relaxed. x)
woke up at 10am!
refreshed.
whoopie.
and i'm going to do LOADS of stuff today.
i'm HAPPY.

but i wish i can go out and chat.
but it's raining damn heavily outside. gosh.

going to do my DNT folio soon.
done with one part of my sketches.
so that's good.
you know,
i feel like going out tomorrow.
=)
feelings. =)

and i was looking through my notebooks today.
and i realize i have songs written like everywhere.
gosh.
didnt know i had so much time.
at that time. =)

ok,
i really dont know what the hell i'm talking about now.
going abit nutty.

anyway,
i need a haircut.
AH.
dont want ms gan to snip my hair off!
AAAAHH.
i think i will just cry if she really does it.
so i better cut my hair soon. =)

hymm.
hang on.
the last time i cut my hair was on when we were still hanging out together.
and we even went to cut our hairs together. =)
everytime,
the bus passes by that place,
i remember us walking out of the salon, and all the way to macs.
=)
makes me smile.
happy memories. =)
thanks for them =)

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Thursday, May 05, 2005

be that way.

my timing is HORRIBLE. x)

PLEASE LET EM STICK TO JILL!!
MY MUSIC RUINED EVERYTHING!!

hang on.
why the hell am i saying all these?!
why the hell am i caring so much for?
ARGH.

today?
morning training.
wth.

3 minutes of SUICIDAL RUNS.
3 minutes of IMAGINARY SKIPPING AND JUMPING JACKS

80 PUMPING
80 SIT UPS.

AAAAHHHH!!
gosh.
i survived it!! YAY.
i hate suicidal runs man.
i hate them to the core!!!

anyway,
the day WAS going fine. =)
until ART came.

bio.
watched some shows. x)

ART.
wth!
we used to love art.
but this year, it totally turned all of us down.
we were playing basketball befroe art FOR A REASON.
WE WERE AT THE ART ROOM MORE THAN 10 MINUTES EARLY.
SO WE DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO
COS WE COULD NOT HAVE POSSIBLY PAINT OUR PUPPETS OUTSIDE THE ART ROOM.

gosh.
honestly.
i'm going to fail art this term.
wth.
i love art.
but this year, SOMEHOW *coughs I SEEM TO HATE IT
and it's not only me feeling this way

anyway
chinese was ok. for once =)
found out some stuff. yep.

the rest of the day was ok i guess.

after school.
went to heartland with jill, jan and doralynn.

you know,
honestly.
heartland is small.
BUT
somehow,
there are friends there.
and you dont bump into them?
that's really odd.
heh.

ate at BK.
gosh!
jill eats like some snail!
x)

then we went to take neos.

went home with doralynn thereafter.

went for music.
and FREAK.
had a call from jill. when my teacher wasn't around.
TOLD ME SOMETHING DAMN NOT INTERESTING LA.
x)

WTH!
I WAS LIKE.
'YOU'RE KIDDING RIGHT?!'
'PLEASE SAY YOU ARE'

oh well.
=)

hymm.
ate out with family/. =)

gonna do my work now.

when i'm alone, this world is such a different place.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

am i suppose to do something?

argh.
somehow,
i feel confused.
and i DONT KNOW WHY.
that's why i'm confused.

this little knot is KILLING me.

*//somehow. You are always there to rescue me.

i honestly think i'm going to explode.
i want to.
cos i cant hold on to my feelings much longer.

hymm.
school today?
usual.

NO SCHOOL ON FRIDAY!!!
THANK GOD.

hymm.
english test.
i'm going to fail I.T music.
wth.
so here it goes

'you have to resummit it:"

"but we dont have it. it's deleted"

'then we have no choice but to give you this grade. it is VERY BADLY done'

"ok, is there anything we can do to improve it?"

'we have to take this grade'

"so isn't there only 1 choice?!"

'yeh'

WTH.
lou and i were like.
THEN WHAT'S THE USE OF ASKING US MAN?!

wth.

dont feel like typing
dead tired.
need to rest.

you're online.

When everyting starts crashing down
When all I know falls to the ground
When darkness comes and I can't see
You're always there to rescue me

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Monday, May 02, 2005

another whirlwind.
apart.

whee.
yesterday was super DUPER fun. x)
church.
after church,
vic, nic, christine and i were hanging at millenia.
caleb, calvin, paul, regina and shaun were there too.
HAHA.
were crapping.
HELL. it was freaking funny.
calvin, caleb and paul were doing the BAMBI POSES.
and we were taking photos of them.
HAHA.
and also the sparstic ones. x)

after that,
went to NUS guild house
the 4 of us.
and our families.
we played table soccer and pool.

OH.
and we were having so much fun.
just the 4 of us.
UNTIL SOME IDIOT CAME AROUND.
FREAKit.

yesyes.
distrubted our whole game please.
WTH.
but it was damn funny.

christine: [runds out of the toilet] AHHH!! GUESS WHAT>!?! CHARM'S BOYFRIEND JUST SENT HER A MUSHY GOODNIGHT MESSAGE!!

his face was turning into some goldfish.
HAHA.

hell right. my boyfriend eh?!
what a LOSER.

2 words?
GET REAL.

so the 4 of us went to the restaurant.
crapped there.
talked. chatted. laughed. laughed. laughed our heads out.
had fun.

ARE YOU DUMB?

HAHA.
phrase of the day. heh.

HOME.

today.
i'm learning how to slack.
=)
gotta study history now.

so much for a fairytale.
it's just a nightmare turned to real.

*lotr is so cool*
charms