Classique.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

why does it feel like it's raining in my head?

out the whole day.

this morning.
i woke up at 8.30am.
suddenly.
and i freaked out. cos i thought that tomorrow would be may already
and it means i have only 2 MONTHS till my music exam.

OH SHIT.

can i just cry?
cos i thought i had like 4 more months or something?
oh crap.

had music at 10.30am.
so had less than 2 hours to practice.
but that period was good enough.

and i think the air cons in honeycomb is also spoilt?!
real hot.

thereafter,
family went to the east area.
duku road area.
then ate at some famous wanton noodles place.
saw evan. with some of her friends. =)
but she didnt see me.

anyway,
after that,
i was in church.
from 1.30pm to 6.30pm.
had to do the mum's day powerpoint thing.
and cell.
aunt bengbeng talked about attitude today.
whoa.
somehow i honestly think they are psychic or something?
HAHA.
aunty bengbeng said this which caught me.

'despite all the problems and hardships, are you going to continue on, and find a solution, with God behind you?'

that really caught me. =)

anyway,
after cell
went to 2nd level.
was slacking there.
guys were playing their stupid cube.

caleb and calvin taught me how to play 'what the world would never take'!!!!
thanks guys! =)
oh my gosh!!
it's damn coOl. REALLY.
and it's actually easy.
OH,
and caleb CLAIMS he's a mixture of marty sampson, marcus beaumont and jonathan douglass.
WOW.
heh. no way. not marcus beaumont. heh.

so stayed in church till 6.30.
ate at novena.
HOME.

*// isn't it obvious enough? You are all that i need =)

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Friday, April 29, 2005

nothing can stop us now.
or maybe.
nothing can stop me now.

that's what it's all about.

i'm at ease.
it's another friday.
i got through another week.
really have to thank God for that man.

today?
my first day with my new partners. NOTE: it's partnerS not partner.
cos now,
i'm sitting in a group of 3.
and i'm in the middle. =)
rachel lim and soks' nice! x)
but
i still miss clare dearie.
we are scheming a plan. hehheh.
we are going to execute in on tuesday!!
*sniggers

hymm.
so today.
it was going out of hand at first.
totally confused.

but got things sorted out?
probably.
hopefully.

anyway,
after the first 2 periods of the day
all of us were freaking at ease.
cos that was our last test of the week x)

science test.
bio was easy. chapters 6 and 7. *grins
chem?
oh crap. rubbish! it was tough.
oh well
what do you expect from a paper set by Mrs teo?
=)

so the day was fine.
i guess.
hey,
everything has its ups and downs right?

art fest after school.
it started at 3.45pm?!
so jan,ju, clare, doralynn and i were playing netball and basketball till 3.45pm.
GOSH.
sweated so much.
like as if we had training.
cos it was under the really hot sun.
=)

art fest.
was sweet.
haha.
the performances. they were great. no wonder they got those golds and silvers for syf.

after the fest,
it was around 6pm.
played bball again! the 5 of us with shiyun.
then the dance people wanted to play with us.
haha.
NETBALLERS AGAINST DANCERS x)
so we did.
and guess what?!
WE WON!
hah.

was playing till 7.30. around there.
you can imagine how sweaty we were.
IN FULL SCHOOL UNIFORM.
gosh.

jan's dad sent us home.
thanks!
so sweet of him. =)

so now
i'm slacking!!

oh
by the way.
just want to tell fourplay this:

hey mates.
love you guys.
you guys are like the greatest.
and i'm sure we can figure this prob out. =)
so what if it's an inner conflict?
we can go through anything together right? =)
i'm sure we can. =)
love.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Thursday, April 28, 2005

speechless.

not having a good day.

why the hell is this happening.
honestly.
i dont understand.
damn. it.

not lost for words.
cos i'm not going to say anything.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

my sugar rush. =)
my first 3 pointer =))

i like that song.
even though it's sorta OLD. =)
sweet.

today,
4 periods of RECESS.
we were happy =)
anyway,
tomorrow, art.
we ARE going to get into trouble.
that i gurantee.
OH SHIT.

today.
chem. did experiments. =)
i love them.

maths. passes fast. =)

then the 4 periods of luxury begins. x))
clare and i were packing our tables. far too messy.
stared pasting masking tape on our tables. HAHA.
I LOVE MY PARTNER! --> points right
and hers was
MY PARTNER!! <-- points left.
HAHA.

did my chinese oral today.
GOSH.
i think without my friends, I WOULD HAVE DIED DURING CHINESE ORAL.
thanks for helping X)

then after school.
was playing the shooting game with doralynn.
was waiting for janice.
and guess what?
first time i finished the shooting game first.
and the first time i got a 3 pointer! X)
okok,
for basketballers reading this,
it is a miracle if i ever do a 3 pointer
cos i CANT SHOOT FOR NUTS
AND EVERYONE KNOWS THAT.

so yeh.
haha.
and doralynn has to do something cos i got in =)

anyway
went to heartlands. mac.
ju met up with us there.
met abi and lou.
then went to take neos thereafter.
oh btw,
doralynn just wants to jinx me!
we keep saying the same thing at the same time.
HAHA.

after neos.
went home.
had to donate.
heh.
and met gwen
and she tried to 'save' us.
HAHA.

home with doralynn.
i'm slacking! =)

quotable.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

i grew in 4 months! =)
2cm. =)
so that makes me 161cm! AHHH!!!

and guess what?!
i lost weight!!!
500g!!!
HAHA!! like that's a big difference really.

anyway,
2 more weeks.
just 2 more weeks.
and we willl be free from tests!
the sound of it is just so exciting.

anyway,
school was the same as usual.
just that clare came to school for only half a day.
and it was the LATER half of the day.
WOW.

after school
training.
phew.
and i was lazy to take a bus home.
so i called my dad.
and i knew i was totally going to KILL the whole car.
cos I STINK.
HEY! IT'S AFTER TRAINING! WHAT DO YOU EXPECT MAN?!
oh btw,
doralynn was with me.
heh.
ANYWAY,
went into the car.
went to fetch my mum, char and dennis.
WTH.
their reaction was damn big la.
my sis was lyk. WHOA.
'AT LEAST I DONT STINK AS MUCH AS YOU WHEN I HAVE PE!!'
i was lyk
'ARE YOU TRYING TO COMPARE MY TRAINING WITH PE?! I JUST HAD TRAINING YOU KNOW?!'

enough about the stinkyness ya?
so they wanted to eat at serangoon gardens.
but
in the end
they ate at novena square.

HOME.

just done with my chinese stuff.
=)

*//You calmed the storms in me.

i couldn't possibly have regretted.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Sunday, April 24, 2005

my dad once told me his defination of 'MUSICIANS'

he said that
musicians are people who compose their own music and play their own music.

i definitely agree with that. =)

anyway,
today my parents didnt wake me up.
cos they thought i was already awake cos my they thought my sis was me.
oh well.

so was late for church.
and i was ursher?!
so i didnt do my duty today. heh.

went up to do the video shoot for mother's day.
went down with nic and christine thereafter.

today we stayed outside.
the message was about adoption.
odd?
interesting. =)
you cant disown a adopted kid.
isn't that interesting. haha.

after service
was chatting in church as usual.

and i thought that today i was sorta cheery.
and happy. carefree.

and i was stoning on my chair.
for i dunno how long.
cos roy was waving his hand a metre away from my face.
and i didnt even know he was calling me.
and he asked why i seemed so depressed.

and i was like.
i THOUGHT i looked happy today?!
oh well.
hymm.
news past fast?
i dunno.
zai also asked if i was ok, yesterday.
haha.
you mean it's alwasy written all over my face.

i cant hide from my friends.
haha.
weird how they can read you like a book
without even turning a page.

went over to my granny's.
aunt jac gave birth again.
but this baby is real cute.
another boy.
doesn't have a name yet.
i told her to name it JAMIE.
cos her 2 other kids are justin and jerome.
so maybe a JAMIE, JOEY, JOEL.
haha.

home.
did some work.
played my guitar.
slack.

oh by the way.
i hate expectations.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Saturday, April 23, 2005

ripped this from friendster.
it's really sweet. read it!

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no.

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever.... and he said no.

She asked him if he liked her and he said no

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face, the boy grabbed her arm and said....

You're not pretty, you're beautiful.
I dont want to be with you forever I NEED to be with you forever.
I dont like you, i LOVE you.
And I wouldnt cry if you walked away...
I'd die...

gosh. x)
that's sweet.
haha.

went out with my family today.
this morning my mum burst into my room.
she was like 'CHARM! CAN YOU MISS YOUR GUITAR LESSON TODAY?!'
and i was still half asleep or something?!
and i didn't even know what was going on.

but anyway
i missed it.
and my family went out the whole day. =)
first to my dental.
then to taka. shopped.

oh.
my sis is really rich eh?!
she bought this Louis Vuitton bag for 1440 bucks.
like. WOW.
but she has been eyeing it for a freaking long time.
so she bought it.
WHOA.
i could have got myself an electric guitar!
WTH!!
1440 bucks for a bag is totally not worth it please.
but she liked it.
anyway she paid for it. heh.

after taka,
went to PS to collect curtains and groceries.
and my dad was just being very lame.
cos he let my mum drop of first
and my mum said that she would reach spotlight faster than the rest of us.
and my dad just had to want to race my mum to it.
HAHA.
it was damn funny.

bought loads of food again.
grocery shopping. =)

char and dennis went to tampines thereafter.
HOME.

just done with my folio. dumb DNT.

going to start preparing for my chinese oral. gosh.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Friday, April 22, 2005

today is the toughest day of the week.
and i got through it.
that's something really amazing. =)

first off,
chem.
i got 'scolded' just because i said i saw a bird.
that's really dumb. heh.

Maths.
the test was horrid.
and when did 6/4 become 2 1/2?!
me and careless mistakes again.

PE.
basketball. wow.

after recess was ENGLISH.
glad that i did everything at home
so i just had to rewrite everything in class.
=)

CHINESE.
terror.
THE test.

GEOGRAPHY.
boring.
on tropo maps.
some of them got scolding for pasting scotch tape on the map.
long story.

TRAINING.
terror.
horrid.
speechless.
gosh.
was really super tired.
and i'm aching all over.

conditioning again?
i hate conditioning!

hurt my back i think.
it's really tensed up.
had to refrain myself from laughing!
which was so difficult to do. heh.

after training,
went to heartland with METAPHOR.
WOW.
finally the 4 of us TOGETHER.

but ju and clare left.

and jan and i ate at KFC.
talked about stuff.
i guess both of us share the same views. =)

went home.

was all alone.
but my sis and dennis is back now =)

i feel relaxed! x)
and i'm loving it. =)

*//Thanks for being there at my darkest hour.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Thursday, April 21, 2005

my tarnished reputation.

whoa.
today is one weird day.
morning training. 20 minutes.
found out some secret. heh.

anyway
the main highlight of the day:
28 girls from our class was made to stand outside the room.
wow.
really dont feel like elobrating.

maths quiz.
i failed. wow.
expected.
all the dumb careless mistakes.
and i cant even read my handwriting?!
coOl.

OH!!
i'm done with OLIVER TWIST!!
HAHA.

hymm.
afternoon training.
i felt that i wasn't performing up to standard.
definitely.

conditioning. whoa.

anyway,
i feel like throwing that badge away.
it's really some burden?
i dunno.
yeh.
but i cant let it go.

why do people expect so much?
sometimes expectations drive me up the wall.
it's not the tests that i'm worried.
it's the freaking grades.
what's up with expectations.

*//Broke the night like the sun.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

If only i could play my keyboard and guitar everyday.
and just do nothing but that.
that's when it's called paradise.
=)

i love wednesdays.
really.
NO CHINESE.
and there's bio too. =)
and music =)
and english =)

it's a terribly happy day.

what can i say about today?
it's a happy day.
=)
[and i thank God for the weather.] x)

oh,
thank God that jill's thing is solved too.

oh,
and jan went to the psycio today.

so ju and doralynn and i went to heartland to munch.
and i learnt a new word! =)

ELOHSSA =)

it's prononced as E-LO-SA

HAHA.

by the way.
it's the opposite of ASS HOLE. heh.
lamebrain.

ate at KFC.
munched.
home with doralynn.

just finished chinese.
went to practice my electric guitar. DESTRESS!!!
now i'm uploading songs into my com.

some songs really reminds you of certain things doesnt it?
happy times.
horrid times.
sad times.
but they all form up my life doesnt it.
=)

You know, if my heart was made of a diamond
i'm really amazed how you could break it.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Monday, April 18, 2005

the word 'conflict'. it means more than 'to quarrel'

the word conflict,
is used when arguments can cause the team to break up or be demoralized.

sounds familar?

today is the start of THE WEEK.
yesyes.
HAHA.

i'm going hysterically mad. =)

probably cos i'm piled up with work to the brim.
and i really dont feel like studying now.

anyway,
if doralynn was paid $1 for everytime someone asked/told her
"HEY! YOU CUT YOUR HAIR!"
she would be a millionaire in 3 hours.
=)

HAHA.

what did i do in school today?
i cant remember.
seriously.

apart from the fact that jill told me some stuff which freaked me out.
and i had to stay back in school for some class comm. thing.
and jan had to go to the physio.

for class comm thing today
had the DISC thing.
i'm a SCI. =)

wasn't really paying attention.
only did when they talked about the part about conflicts.
it woke me up. i guess. haha. i wonder how.

doralynn went home with me as usual. =)

just wondering.

i really wonder if things really last nowadays.

ok, i have to face it.
everything's reminding me of all the great times we had together for the past months we hanged out together.
and some of them really made me happy. =)
the times when we just crapped everywhere we could sit and just talk and talk and talk.
i miss the times when we just did the telepathing stuff. outside yellow.
i miss the times when we ate at KFC. and laugh when the uncle told us something.
i miss the times when we just had fun playing netball together.
i miss the times when we took pictures together.
i miss the neos we took together.

i miss U6.

but i guess.
it will never come back.

i guess it's probably my fault too.

the ring's not everlasting anymore.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Sunday, April 17, 2005

the world will never take.

sunday today!
=)
was usher today. and i didnt even know! i thought it was next week.

so was sorta happy today =)
smiled at everyone around.

well.
the scripture for today:
Matthew 6:32-34 [esp 34]

it got me.

well.
i let go of everything to Him. =)
Thank God for being there =)

after service,
had to go for some usher meeting thing.

so it goes like this

aunt beng2: this wont take very long.
speaker: yes, it will just take 1/2 an hour

and the 4 of us were like. WHAT?!
very short. really REALLY short. heh.

oh,
btw,
ancient friend PAUL is kinda smart =)
he found out who it was. haha.
TELEPATHY.

anyway,
after that went to united square to have lunch.
caleb and ancient friend tagged along in the car.
and CALEB! LOOK TO YOU IS NICE OK!
HAHA.

doralynn was also at united square too! =)
so saw her new hair cut =)
it's not bad! REALLY!
i didn't laugh.
cos if not i would have been laughing at myself. x)

went to cold storage to stock up the kitchen again. =)
how fast. i thought we stocked for the trojan army last saturday.

one week pasts super fast.
wow.
one hectic week.

*//Take you away

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Saturday, April 16, 2005

**//All i need is you.

well.
i thought i could wake up late today.
i woke up at 7.
6 hours of sleep. on saturday. wow.

went around the whole of singapore and came home.
did some work.

now is break time.
=)

*//You are all that i need.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Friday, April 15, 2005

swear by it.

today is SLACK DAY.
oh, and guess what?
CLARE'S BACK!!! YAY!!!! MY DEARIE PARTNER!!! =))

oh.
and i studied maths for 2 full days.
and i got different answers from all of them. WOW.
wth.
it's really getting to me.

after school,
had a freindly match at HOUGANG PRIMARY. HAHA.
well, beelian asked us to go over so that they can practice and prepare for their semi-finals.
some cute ones there.
DOBBY!! [i bet that's not the right spelling of her name]
some of the kids there are damn cute!
sweet.
some are really rude.
some were damn act cool. and have major attitude problems.

but most were sweet.

it was really fun.
i mean, we really haven't played a REAL game for a really long time.

somehow,
it really brings back memories.
fond ones.
=)

beelian said that doralynn and i strated throwing balls a bit off balance.
sigh.
shows that we desperately need training.
and the sad fact is that,
we are going to DIE literally in the hands of someone.

and we decided to cook up this really full proof plan. =)
hopefully it would work when this certain thing happens.

anyway,
after the match,
jan, ju, dory and i went to festival market to eat.
gosh. freaking tired. muscles aching.
talked. talked. talked.
that's what's interesting isn't it?

doralynn left.

jan, ju and i went over to heartland thereafter.
jan left once she got htere. dad came.
talked to ju for awhile.
somehow, i felt better.
thanks ju. =)
really helped.
=)

so now i'm home.
packed to the brim with loads of work.
Lord, help me through all these.

somehow, you seem to be in everything we do. everything we say.

oh.
swear by it.
are you sure?

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Thursday, April 14, 2005

the road's not straight anymore. //`get what i mean?my dear loyos. =)

haha.

anyway,
it has been another weird week.
all the ups and downs.
AND MANY MILLION SECRETS REVEALED. *beams

darn.
dont feel like talking much.
lazy to type.

so much for forgetting you.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Monday, April 11, 2005

All i need is you*

i wonder if things are going ot get better.

did 2.4 today!! *screams
shucks.
i ran extra 1/2 round again?!
yeh.
thanks to my dear teacher.

ipw.
whoa.
one word: SUCKY.

yeh.
after school.
did some search for teachers.
money lost. i honestly wonder how bad things can be.
i cant seem to trust anyone anymore.

went to town with jill,jan.ju and dory.
wth.
got presents.
yay.

i cant seem to trust anyone.
i dont know what's real.
please.

Lost for words. with all to say.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Sunday, April 10, 2005

so it was all just a game. not for us. but for you.
wth.

ok,
so got things clarified.

well,
i honestly dont know what's real anymore.
i dont know who's speaking the truth anymore.
somehow, i dont trust them, anymore.

ok,
this post is going to be a bit sad.
so if anyone reading this is sad enough,
dont read further.

i finally could feel
how it is to be hurt.
how it is to be in pain. =) that's a first.
some people should know why.

why does it feel like it's raining in my head?
i dont understand.

not really in the happy mood now.
i'm still confused.
still wondering why they think it's real funny.
still wondering why they thing it's all a joke.

but it's totally not.

i dont know what's going on in church either.
aunty bengbeng told my parents something i think. about me. having some mood today. i think.
anyway,
my parents started telling me some inspirational stuff.
actually,
i could only remember 1/10 of what they said.
and many of them were lyk,
'are you ok?' and stuff. yeh, i am. just not feeling good.

so i wore this plastic smile on me.
just to prove that i'm ok.

but guess what?
i dont think i am.

but i will be, soon. really. hopefully.

oh,
'cant break through' by busted really got to me.
haha. well, was listening to it in the car.
just closing myself off from everything.
i think my parents think i'm mad. HAHA.
anyway,
that song's really sweet.

tomorrow's going to be one hard day.
lit test.
2.4 km.
ipw project.

i wonder how bad it can get.

Dear Lord,
help me through this time.
i really feeling freaking irritated and helpless.
You are the only one that can really help me through.
cos You know what's going to happen next.

you know,

they say that there are many out there,
but there would be only one you.

*lotr is so cool*

Saturday, April 09, 2005

i'm stuck.
somehow i cant find the right direction.

today,
went to the dentist. freaking pain. really.
then we went over to suntec at 9.50am. WOW. none of the shops opened.
was picking some stuff up from carrefour.
was supposed to get dad's shoes. but he couldnt find the one he wanted.

went home thereafter.
rushed out of the house once i got changed.
took a cab to bugis. wth. the cab cost was lyk 9 bucks. dumb traffic.
jill,jan,ju,dionne and doralynn were waiting for me.
oops. sorry.

watched a movie. the pacifier! haha. it's really lame.
took neos as usual.

rushed to the park thereafter.
whoa.
it's really damn lame. please.
was eating, and chatting and watching the basketball matches.
girls basketball! it's really really violent.

went home thereafter.
oh, and doralynn's parents thing both of us are les. HAHA.
funny man.

LOST.

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Friday, April 08, 2005

fear is lost.

so many things have been happening.
this has been one really hard week.

but hey,
i guess most of the things are settled. =)

ok,
i really have to say sorry to a particular group of people: my clique. loyos.

hey mates. i'm really sorry. sorry for neglecting you guys.
i felt it too. you guys felt it too. and i'm really sorry. i guess a sorry cant make up for everything ya? but we will go out next week ok? hope that i can make it up to you all.

and to this someone.
hey, i really didnt mean to hurt you. yeh, i was too, blunt. i guess. i'm sorry. i promise i would make it up to you. =) see you around.

ok,
so i felt like dying yesterday.
but what the heck.
no use dying over these stuff. i mean.
there will always be a solution to something right?

my sis and almost got ramped over by a truck yesterday.
wth.
woke me up man.

anyway,
today,
was mufti day!
sold rice krispies and cookies!!
it was really fun.

and all the funny costumes and stuff!
haha. was real great.

geog test? KILLER.

went to play basketball with jan,doralynn, ju, uneven and his friend.
damn lame la.
ate at macs.

jan drew on my hand.
and my dad was making a loud din about.
he hates me drawing on my hands you see.
oh WELL.

HOME.

and then another problem?
wth.
this time i'm gonna just let it get solved by itself. =)
how smart. =)

*//left my fears beside the road, hear you speak, i wont let go/

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

i wouldn't have it any other way =)

oh gosh.
clare and ju didnt come to school today.
1/3 of U6!!

ju had a sudden muscle pull.
she couldn't walk.
take care ya?
my dear hubby! x)

and clare! my dear partner!!!!
she got sick. gosh.
get well soon!
love. =)

hymm.
today was another slack day.
friday's timetable.
chem! had to do those chemical balance thing! AAHHHH!!!
i dont like it!

anyway,
tomorrow onwards,
for every bio lesson, we will be talking about chpt 6 and 7.
*coughs. [someone's favourite chapters eh? x)]

HAHAA.

oh,
and i FINALLY gave Mr Leow my art. HAHA.
after dunno how many days.
heh.

came home early today.
with U6-2.
HOME.
=)

should i wait for you? =)

*lotr is so cool*
charms

Monday, April 04, 2005

you just have to learn the hard way.

I'M CONFUSED.
I'M LOST.
WHY THE HELL IS EVERYTHING HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME?

anyway,
many things going on currently.
dont feel like writing them down.
leaving it all to Him.

well, i guess things are picking up. =)
gosh. i tihnk i'm contradicting myself. hymm.

i live this world freestyle.
my rules.

and there's nothing you can do about it.

*lotr is so cool*
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Sunday, April 03, 2005

sunday.

another Sunday.
went to church.
bras besar to get my art stuff.
went to granny's house today. i miss her cooking. =)
home.

well,
haven't been blogging for the whole week.
i have been busy.

so here's a summary of this week:

-did loads of tests
-got back loads of tests
-went to the specialist
-sports day
-netball induction camp
-basketball cum netball with NICOLE and jestyn and u6-1 x)

ah well.
so things in the house is not very good now.
dont want to talk about it.
just finished redoing my art.
hopefully mr leow would be ok with it.

oh,
and doralynn,
that april fool's joke is SO dumb.
but you totally freaked me out!

MORAL OF THE STORY:
always scroll down to read the 2nd half of the sms.
wth.

i'm forcing myself to smile.

*//You say You want all of me. i wouldn't have it any other way.

*lotr is so cool*
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