Hey!
i have SOOO many things to write about! but i dont think i will mention it all
THE HOLIDAY
went to malaysia, putrajaya. hymm. marriott? NICE.
but i think we were out most of the time. heh. SHOPPING! but it was damn fun! you know,, just to be with your family and to see that they are all happy is just the greatest. haha.
my mum was working. yeh. so my dad brought my sis and i around to shop.
and my dad kept finding coins on the ground. haha.
oh, and i practically got trashed by my dad TWICE during CHESS. i got COMPLETELY defeated! sooo sad!
we came back late on the last day. and it was the day with the full moon. heh. so we were travelling back to singapore at night. so i was practically looking at the moon and the sky the whole trip back. heh. but of course with my mp3 on. some music makes the world go round. heh. crap. actually, i was lyk admiring the fact that God is such a coOl artist! the clouds and the sky and the moon and everything else is so nice and simply beautifully made.
overall, it was a fun trip.
YESTERDAY/SEC 4 FAREWELL
oh wow. my alarm clock played me out. and i was suppose to meet ju at the bus stop at 6.45am and i woke up at 6.45am. whoa.
anyway, my parents fetched us to KNC. so we were not late.
hymm. training yesterday?
i practically SLACKED. very very slack.
and coach said that training was going to be very intense from now on. hymm. VERY intense.
ju and i have to add pressure to our team-mates. HOW?! oh well.
ok, so after training, jan, ju, qinyi and i wanted to go back to school but in the end we followed jenny, su and beiyi. heh.
went to serangoon central. had to buy food for dad and char. and they bought their things for the farewell. later on, jan, ju, qinyi, su and i left first. jan and ju went to school first to get the dance started. su, qinyi and i went back to my home to take the ice box. heh.
went back to school thereafter.
the farewell was ok. haha.
to the sec 3s: thanks for planning this farewell!
but the games were DIRTY.
touching frogs, mealworms, cockroaches. hymm. at least our group took the box with rubberbands and straws only. haha.
then we had to eat noodles with WASABI, HOT MUSTARD AND CHILLI mixed. YUCKKKk!!!! very very gross. tasted horrible too.
the other group had to close their eyes and smell some stuff. haha. one of them was supranee's shoe!
had some match with the sec4's. 4-1. haha. we put in one goal! wow.
jan fell. and there was blood. heh. and some transparent thing came out. i told her it was blood w/o red blood cells. hymm. correct? heh. just guessing. haha.
had a very dirty game after that. hymm. SOYA SAUCE. yeh. our whole shirt kinda got soaked in soya sauce cos we put the sponges under our shirt. hehe. ate bananas, blew balloons. haha.
cleared up.
had time to bathe. whoa. felt better. and i realize ALOT of ppl had their FRIEND yesterday. haha. lyk abt 5 ppl?! whoa. it's that season. haha.
had dinner. sec 1s cleared. all of us were wearing the farewell shirt. haha, some of the shirts had more fabric paint on it. hymm.. i wonder why.. heh.
had a bit of time to plan the dance. phew.
we were the first item.
damn freaky and the sec4s were so appreciative. so sweet. and we gave all of them a little christmas gift. and they seem quite happy about it. haha. phew. good thing they liked it. haha.
the sec 2s did a dance and skit.
and the sec 3s did a damn funny skit! haha! it was lyk damn funny. yingjun said that it was VERY impromptu. but it was good. had a good laugh. haha.
overall, it was great. yeh.
sec4s: thanks for being such sweet seniors!
yingjun went home with me. dad fetched.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
today is the WORST day of my life. honestly, i dont think it can get any worst.
before i start writing about today, i guess i need to say sorry to those people whom i affected when i was with them today with this freaking horrible mood. and i also wanna thank you guys for standing my nonsense today. i mean, u all could have just slap me in the face and tell me to shut up or sth. so i really wanna say THANK YOU.
ok, so the day started when i needed to go to the dentist cos my dad 'insisted' that i should get the button pasted back. so we were there at 9.15am. and there were 2 ppl in front of me. and guess what? my job only took 5 minutes. and i had to wait for the 2 ppl to finish first. and i had my turn 2 HOURS LATER. i was freaking pissed. started tearing up newspaper. for dunno what reason. probably bored.
and then the dentist said that actually i didnt need the button anymore. when i heard that i almost felt lyk screaming?! HELLO??!!! we waited there for 2 hours JUST to hear that. WHOA.
anyway, told coach that i was very sorry that i missed training. and in the car i was thinking about being a leader. started questioning myself. am i a good leader? is it suppose to BE in my blood? i mean, being a leader is to be someone who is IN you. honestly, u cant CANT be yourself and be a leader right? u will give up after some time anyway.
so i was figuring out loads of stuff in my head. i was damn confused. wondering if i was a leader that was good enough. if i was meeting expectations. i was really lost.
my dad sent me to school. went to secondary school then track. then i really felt lyk breaking down for dunno what reason. i mean, i just felt horrible. so i teared. and i tried to laugh to hold back my tears. haha. but i couldn't. but thanks to dionne, jan, shabana and renee, i really felt much better.
then next was the dance practice.
ju was coming. and she said she would be at the bus stop and i said that i would fetch her in. then we had a break and we went to the canteen so i didnt have my fone with me. and i practically forgot the time. so ju came up by herself. and i dunno what the hell happened.
so next, had to practice. and yanyi called me and lyk had some complications? i dunno. but in the end she and evan came over.
and the dance prac after that was kinda saddening. i dunno if i was the only feeling it of what.
and then after that loads of things happen. for whatever reason. dont wanna talk abt it.
so jan, dionne, clare, qinyi, yanyi, evan and renee came over.my dad lyk had PMS or sth? started giving me that yelling tone? lyk as if the day wasn't bad enough. did the shirts. shabana called. argh. was pretty sad after that. su and lizard came later on. they were freaking scared of chipz. HAHA. watched 10 things i hate about you.
and yanyi was lyk
'kana sai'
'[f-word]'
'[and sth eklse i forgot]'
so we kept qouting her.. haha. make her irritated.. haha.
they cooked at my home too. surprisingly, my house didnt burn down. but evan's hand has a scar now. cos she touched the hot pot. OUCH. and thanks guys for washing up! x)
ok, so just to fast forward, when everyone left, my dad started complaining. hymm. ok fine. so he has this hating for butches. and he was telling me
'WHY THE BUTCH?!'
and he was telling me every bad thing abt bungs. and i got so fed up i told him
'what do you want me to do?'
anyway, the conversation stopped. cos i decided to bathe.
by the way, just in case you all dont know, my dad knows ALOT about lesbianism. or maybe abt bungs. he kinds of dislikes them? yeh. maybe cos my sis used to lyk.. ya. u get it. oh heck anyway.
so here i am. trying to figure out and analysing the day. i guess things just has to go on. come on man. quit the self pity man.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
today was fun. haha.
had training at kallang today. hmph. dont really like it there nowadays cos i have to travel. haha. but thank God my parents sent me there today.
anyway, had loads of fun. haha. played some 'game'.. and got to know the RV people better.
and dionne was asking me some weird question.
honestly. i tink it's all crap. i really dunno what the hell i'm doing and everything.really, i cant possibly tell her
'hey! i dont like your face! can you STOP talking to me?!' right?
i'm trying my freaking best to be nice to EVERYONE.
ahh. who cares anyway.
so after that, jan, dionne, rachel, shi yun, doralynn, clare, qinyi, renee and i went over to KFC. ate.
then jan, clare and qinyi were supposed to go over to my home. took 16 cos it USUALLY goes to bugis and dhoby ghaut. AND WE MISSED 3 BUS 16?!!! whoa. how fortunate can we get?! anyway, on the bus we thought of going to supranee's home so we did. and guess what> the bus driver said that 16 didnt stop at bugis! WOW! they change the route w/o telling us!
so we got off at marine parade. i was feeling damn horrible. kinda 'sick'. so they were so sweet to go over to the marine parade library to use the washroom. haha.
then after that, we were trying DAMN hare to flag a taxi and in the end, we flagged a LONDON CAB!!!! it's damn nice man!!!
anyway, we kinda helped supranee, jenny, yingjun, yanyi, beiyi and su.. heh.. we blew the shirts dry for them. HAHA.
Jenny was lyk burping!! HAHA!
supranee was lyk drawing balls!
yingjun disappeared?!
beiyi was rubbing her eyes.. heh.
yanyi was acting dumb abt it?!
and su was the best man... PLAYING POKEMON WITH SUPRANEE'S BRO!! HAHA!! that was DAMN funny man!!
and i have a new 'name'.. BIMBO-TIC. ?!!?!
darn. so tired.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
oh man. the stay over was FREAKING FUN man! haha. i'm dead tired now.
Fairfield Friendly Match
we WON!! haha. 26-23. very close win though. well, at least we won. cos coach was prepared for us to lose..
WELL DONE EVERYONE!
but i totally deteriorate. especially my stamina. i was lyk totally lost. hymm. really dunno why. and coach was lyk
'charmaine, UNFIT. very UNFIT'
oh well. guess i would have to train my stamina again.
after that, we went to PS to eat. was dead hungry. was pretty grumpy too.
and they made up this family thing. and ju's my dear lao gong now.. haha. and we have lyk 13 other children?! haha. so interesting.
Church stayover
after going to PS, went to my church for a stay over. haha. didnt noe it would be soo much fun! haha. watched movies. and the guys were lyk playing their gamecube for 13 HOURS STRAIGHT! i really salute them man!
then we were playing thaiti. haha. the BEGGAR style. HAHA. it was freaking funny man! the loser was supposed to be the beggar. so jun jiang was the beggar.. FOR 7 STRAIGHT GAMES! haha. so he has the title of
'THE prestigious BEGGAR [prounced as BUGGER]'
haha. and in reality, he's lyk very VERY rich. haha. and he's a beggar. how ironic!
so we were making loads of names for everyone. haha. was laughing at BUGGER the whole night. haha. they were all talking abt him the whole night. we were all soo alive.. talking all the morning through. only darryl, christine, caile and i stayed up till 6.30am. so we slept for 1 hour and woke up again. and the rest woke up at 7.30am too, except for 3 of them. hymm. wonder why all of us woke up so early for.. haha.
haha. had LOADS of fun. played table tennis too! haha.
listened to loads of CDS. =)
dad came to fetch me. and he stayed there for 1/2 hour more cos he was fellowshipping with my friend's parents. as always. haha.
so now i'm home. i'm gonna bathe and have a good nap. hymm. or maybe not. gosh. i'm so indecisive.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
so mixed up
yesterday my family went over to my granny's. and i realize that it makes me happy when they are happy. i couldn't help it. i was so pissed. but when i saw my family smiling and laughing in the car, i couldnt help but smile back at them. haha. anyway, i couldn't hold my frown any longer. haha.
today i had LOADS of scolding. from coach? yes. and on top of all that, i had a tummy ache. darnit. gastric? it was pain that's all. couldnt throw the ball to the right person. so it was quite obvious why i got the scoldings from coach eh? and of course because of some of the team members. oh well. kinda used to it already? i tried freaking hard to rush them. oh well.
sometimes i really dunno if it's me or is it just them. selfish. i really dunno. sometimes. selfish. i feel so freaking disappointed. it's so damn obvious that every single one of them make the team. or group? team or group. there's loads of difference between a team and a group. all slacking away? i dunno. maybe it's just me. feeling oh so paranoid. when it's actually true. it's happening. it's reality. why the hell is it always about 'i'?
gosh. dont want to talk about it anymore.
after training, had the rehersal. some of them were practically restless. dying. i dunno. pick one. or maybe both. i was tired too anyway. and janice yue!! she's such a great cheographer! she's such a great dancer! [as always!]
so we practiced till 12.30pm. around there. then went over to heartland. i was totally BROKE. gave my last 10 bucks to ju. so i was BROKE. so jan and i went over to the ATM machine. i'm 210 bucks short. i dunno what the hell i've been spending on man. better trace where all those money disappeared to.
jan and i pangseh clare, christabel, dionne, doralynn and qinyi at KFC. haha. we decided to eat at yoshi instead. so we left them at KFC. hehe. so evil of us. but we came back in the end. decided to go home early cos i was SUPPOSE to go to a chalet at 4pm. dead tired. so jan sent me to the bus stop.. well, somewhere near there. haha. good thing i didnt miss the bus. heh.
so i went home and i decided NOT to go for the chalet and decided to pack my room! yay! my mum says that it would take many days to clear my whole room. oh fine la. she's thinks my room is somewhat in a great mess. okok, so she's right.
oh by the way, janice, my christmas tree is out already. decorated it yesterday. hehe. i love it! though it's probably the smallest tree among u guys. haha. i love it man!
christmas is coming! i love christmas. somehow, there's this special feeling abt christmas. everyone's happy.. most of the people. and all the christmas deco around town. LOVELY. but christmas is totally not abt deco and stuff. heh. everyone knows that.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
the sweetest thing
my friend's brother was willing to kiss his 'girlfriend's' father for one minute just to let his 'girlfriend' go to his house. haha.
that's really sweet of him.
but guess what? he's 7. haha. see how cute these kids can get? haha.
helped my mum to clean up the kitchen this morning. felt good! the kitchen's much better now! haha.
then brought my sis to work. then my parents swung me to the upper serangoon bus stop. was going to meet jill and jan to go to dionne's house. movie screening. haha.
then i realize i forgot to bring my phone. WOW. i'm lyk so careless. and my mum could remind me to bring my phone. and i just said 'yes' without even checking?!
anyway, went to dionne's house and watched 2 1/2 movies.
THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW
that show is nice man. touching. jake glennenhaal is cute man! haha.
JOHNNY ENGLISH
oh man. we were dead bored. haha. dionne was trying to amuse us. haha. but it didnt really work.
13 GOING ON 30
oh. this show is touching man. and i teared! haha. that's really weird cos i don't cry when i watch movies. but the last of it was sooo touching.
jill was taking loads of photos.. haha. and jan had some self photos taken too. haha.
WALKED HOME from jill's house after we left dionne's home. haha.
i'm dead tired now. sickening man. piled up with homework. well, at least i'm done with more than 1/2 of it already. i think. argh. who care's anyway? heh.
gonna have a stay over in church. haha. on friday. have to swing over to church after training. phew. i'm gonna stink the whole place man. haha. well, haven't actually been having some 'bonding' with my friends in church for a lloonng time.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
i have a question:
what's the use of liking someone when that person may not like you back?
i mean. it's kinda sad right? when you find out that someone you fancy has someone else or doesn't lyk you. haha. was just thinking about it.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
my dad ah..
here's a conversation between him and his friend.
'so how's your daughter [me]? has she got back her results?'
'oh. she got 2nd in class..'
'that's really good!'
'her class is not very good'
when i heard that i was lyk...
HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT?! I STUDIED SOO FREAKING HARD! I OUGHT TO GET A DECENT GRADE ANYWAY!
whew. i feel good.
my dad's getting crappier by the minute.
i feel weird. very weird. lyk loads of emotions coming all over me. i really don't get it sometimes.
when someone says 'you have the talent. i know you have it' do they say that to please you or is it really a fact?
my Music teacher tell me that. and the fact is that i havent been focusing on music since this year.
and i'm totally not acting lyk a grade 7 student. and i really dont understand how i got that grade. i mean, i have to take soo freaking long just to read some notes. call me a 7th grade student. ya right.
i'm getting stressed up cos of music.
but, it's so ironic cos i love music. it's lyk my life. i love music so much.
i can't give up now. i really cant. i will let my parents and my teacher down. and i feel damn bad. cos my parents just spend around 12k just for my music lessons. thanks. thanks so much. for giving me the freedom to choose what i really like to do and not forcing me to do sth i hate.
my dad said that i'm taking music as a subject that's why i find it so difficult to learn it. i'm trying. trying hard. too hard probably. i'm really lost.
but there was something else he said that made me think through things
'i believe you can do it'
when i heard that, i felt so encouraged.
can someone help me?
i guess no one can. only God can help me. to help myself.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
i'm back!!
whoa. this holiday was fun man! haha.
went to malaysis. stayed in some resort which turned out to be lyk a service apartment. went shopping for 2 days! haha.
the guys' shirts are all soo nice!! i was telling my dad to get this and that and this and that. but he only bought one shirt. wow. typical him. and he lost his swiss knife. his dearest knife. he forgot where he lfet it. so he bought himself a new knife. and a measuring tape. [he's a draftsman]
i bought 3 shirts and a pair of berms. and my mum's so cute. she kept pronouncing 'brems' as 'perms'.. haha... and a sling bag. and a CHESS SET! whee! chess is sooo fun!! my goodness! it's freaking fun man! haha.
my mum bought LOADS of shirts and blouses. haha. usual.
ate loads there. i bet i put on 2 kg man..
played tennis? my hand is freaking aching. my dad was giving me a 'lecture' session on court.
"YOU ARE NOT PLAYING BADMINTON! DONT USE YOUR WRIST! USE YOUR ARM STRENGHT!"
hmph. but i was kinda fun anyway.
and there was fireworks outside our balcony EVERY NIGHT. and they lety them off at lyk 5 am?! it's damn noisy lor. my parents say that it's much nicer than singapore's national day's fireworks.. haha.. fireworks the whole nigth through. they must be damn rich man.. haha.
dad wanted us to see the sunset on the first evening. and i told him that we could see another one the next day. and guess what? it rained the next day so we couldnt see the sunset ON THAT DAY. good thing they didnt listen to me. heh. it was lovely. so i guess i learn a lesson here?
never delay to do sth when you really want to do it. there may or will never be another one. it's how weird why people always take things forgranted.
during the trip, my mum asked me if i wondered what i wanted to be..
so i told her i didnt know yet, cos dreams can change.
so i have been thinking abt it.. how about being a psychiatrist? or a advertisement designer? haha.. if there is ever a kind of job..
it's such a pity my sis couldnt join us. it was real fun.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
jillian's gonna kill me.
I'M SO SORRY JILLIAN!
darn. i realize training this wed is in the afternoon. cant go out with jill! so sorry! all the training time doesnt clash with hers lor. that's means we will never have a day that both of us are free. crap.
today i was out in the morning. was so EXCITING. heh.
went to OCC. see some paintball stuff. and learnt loads of stuff lyk the sand bank in singapore, the GALAXY which can fit another plane into it. and some other stuff.
so, i have decided. I WONT DO ANY HOMEWORK TODAY! i'm so sick and tired of homework.. and it's lyk 1 1/2 months worth of it. hmph. whatever for?!
anyway, training yesterday.
had injuries?
i fell. scraped my skin. ah well. it wasnt so bad. no blood at all! for the 1st time! haha. everytime i fall on that sandpaper ground, i will always get my skin ripped off or sth. haha.
anyway, lazy to talk abt yesterday. i think i'm gonna watch LOTR now. got music later. so i will end here.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
my dad's plain crap.
he said that i ill treated my phone and i killed it. why?
cos its battery died. WHOA.
that's crap.
woke up at 7.30am today. forced myself to wake up to eat breakfast. yep. nowadays i'm feeling damn tired.
ate breakfast. followed my dad to his office. came home. did some of my homework. wow. how interesting. fetched mum.
so after we fetched mum, we went to some warehousecos my dad wanted to get a reasonably priced dvd for his room. so we got it. and this lady was lyk rushing for some of the products lyk as if it's some life support or sth. my goodness. and she stepped on me?! i was gonna screamed into her face BUT demure u know, demure. haha.
so i'm back home. need to do loads of stuff.
my dad promised to teach me how to play the bass guitar..
WHEN I'M FREE.
i wonder when that will happen.
mum wants to go for some recital this evening. at botanic gardens. the mosquitoes will be feasting on us. but we decided not to go anyway.
i HAVE decided. i'm gonna spend some time to practice my keyboard. how can i love it and not be good at it? ok, so i figured that once i get my keyboard done at a faster pace, i would be able to learn the guitar! how brilliant!
ya right. like as if i didnt think of it before. it sounds so freaking simple. but it totally is. -NOT
*lotr is so cool*
charms
what a day.
maths was totally boring. ms chew was the one delaying time not us lor. and she keeps picking on netballers just because we are more outstanding cos we are wearing yellow shirts instead if white?!
anyway, had training in the morning. my right hand doesn't wanna work with me! =(
ju and i went to buy some food at the canteen. haha. and i told the aunty i wanted 1 HASHBROWN [note: pronounced as HAS-H BROWN] and the aunty was lyk
'one HASRHBLOUN only ah?'
and ju said HARSHBLOUN again and the sunty was lyk laughing. heh. i was too. cos she said it in such a funny way.. haha.
we are gonna get pizza, we are gonna get pizza x)
we have a lot of homework. yes. and now i'm talking to the people in the palace. yes. we are negotiating to DEMOTE the prince due to some reasons. she wishes for a better position. so, we proposed her to be
KING, of the molecue of the toilet paper imprint. yesyes. oh well, at least she is a KING of something. heh.
i'm going to DA'VILAGE later. it's something lyk MARCHE. eating out is boring. i wish i have homecooked food everyday. been eating out for lyk the past 2 years? i dunno. but i'm sick of it.
YESTERDAY
damn funny. did the rehersal. went ot eat. and it was raining so heavily. like some typhoon. haha. and the coffeeshop had holes in the celing and it was raining inside too?! so what's the use of being indoors?! and we thought we were stuck there. then we realized that there was a sheltered path all the way to serangoon mrt.. heh. how slow can we get. anyway, we got soaked cos the rain was freaking heavy.
went to PS. missed music. haha. jan and ju bought new slippers! haaha. just walked around. chatted. ate pretzels. haha.
HOME!
ah. tired man. gonna rest soon. guess i'll stop.
*lotr is so cool*
charms
my whole post is gone.
DARNIT.
typed for lyk so long. and it's GONE! and i'm talking to jillian on the fone now. so it's JILL'S fault! hmph! she keeps accussing me about about foodstuff! dont listen to her about any foodstuff!!! NNNNOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okok, so i feel damn bad la. i'm the lemon now. jill says that i go out with other people more than her! okok! i feel guilty! she's making me feel guilty!!! ok, i'm going out with her on WEDNESDAY! i dont care!
i'm too tired to talk about other stuff.
i planned my holiday scheldule yesterday. i'm packed the whole of NOVEMBER. my dad is freaking pissed by the fact that it's packed. and i was not sleeping yesterday in the car. just closing my eyes. and he gets paranoid whenever i sleep. i heard him yesterday.
'see? tire herself out everyday' [dad]
'dear, it's late. let her sleep!' [mum]
crap!
okok, so i'm not spending enough time with my family too.
so the question is, if i have not been spending time with my best friend or family, who have i been spending my time with?
*lotr is so cool*
charms